51. Confession (2)
As soon as he heard my words, Will ordered Marie and Kevin out of the room. They were surprised, but adhering.
Then, once only Will and I remained in the room, I slowly shared the pieces of my heart, one at a time.
āDo you know a noble lady called Fern Ferpia?ā
āFern…?ā
With the word āFernā, Will immediately recognized that it was the pseudonym I was using back in Talia. Will sat next to me quietly, before nodding.
āThe daughter of Count Ferpia? She suddenly went missing.ā
ā…Fern stayed with me for a while, before I abandoned her and ran by myself…ā
When the words came out of my mouth, the bitterness of that time engulfed me. The feelings became more intense, and I bit my lips involuntarily. Soon enough, I felt a soft touch on my lips, which was Willās finger. For some reason, Will looked even more in pain than me.
āWill…?ā
āTia, donāt bite your lips. If you want to bite something, then bite my finger.ā
āT, that kind of thing…ā
āThen, Tia, what did you do…? To think that something like that happen…ā
As if my throat was jammed, I had to muster my everything to talk about that day. It was the first time I had told someone about Fern, and Will held my hand tightly. Fern betrayed me, but in the end, she changed her mind. I then abandoned her and fled with the children.
…When I told Will everything without omitting anythingāWill made a difficult face.
But, shortly afterā
āāTia.ā
He called me with a gentle voice. Even so, perhaps in truth Will was accusing me. He probably thought I was a murderer. Will was kind to me. I knew he wouldnāt do thatābut still, the horror remained.
Unexpectedly, he lifted my chin and kissed my lips. It lasted for a short time.
āā!ā
Towards the surprised me, Will laughed gently. Then, he softly caressed my head.
That was the first time Will had ever kissed me.
āTo be honest with you, Tia. Iām glad Tia escaped. Because otherwise, Tia might have died. From the beginning, it was Lady Fern who betrayed Tia. But because she talked to Tia, she changed her mind. Then, because of hope, Lady Fern turned over a new page and attacked the enemies.ā
ā…ā
āTia. Instead, you should be proud. Lady Fern also said she was used to killing peopleāin the end, she managed to save a life, instead. It was none other than Tia who changed her mind.ā
āBut… I…ā
I had abandoned her and ran away.
I killed her.
āHey, Tia, didnāt Lady Fern at the end say to protect that Shal Ferpia person, and rescue him from hell? If thatās the case, there may be one thing Tia can do.ā
Willās words caused me to lean forward.
Fern certainly had mentioned āShal Ferpiaā. Immediately after I had returned to the Kingdom of Haulfa, I discovered something strangeāCount Ferpia had no other children than Fern.
I felt troubled because I thought Fern had lied to me. I kept rereading the aristocratās family register many times, but the names written there stayed the same.
āTia, I will assist you in your search. Shal Ferpia is the name, right? If we look together, we may find something.ā
When Will told me so, I shook my head fervently. I had to solve this myself. I felt like I shouldnāt rely on the power of Will, the crown prince of the Haulfa Kingdom.
But Will then smiled in annoyance as he dropped another kiss on my temple.
āYouāre stubborn, Tia, but I love that about you.ā
āWha! Hey!ā
āTia, you may not have much time. You should hurry and find what youāre looking for.ā
Towards Willās words, I inadvertently shrank.
***T/N:
Then, once only Will and I remained in the room, I slowly shared the pieces of my heart, one at a time.
INSTEAD OF SHARING IT HOW ABOUT STABBING IT TO PIECES SO WE DON’T HAVE TO SUFFER ANYMORE!?
The author surely didn’t do any research about PTSD if she thought the drawbacks are merely lip-biting and recurring nightmare.
āTia, donāt bite your lips. If you want to bite something, then bite my finger.ā
THIS IS HARDLY THE TIME AND PLACE, MISTER. THIS IS HARDLY THE TIME AND PLACE.
He called me with a gentle voice. Even so, perhaps in truth Will was accusing me. He probably thought I was a murderer. Will was kind to me. I knew he wouldnāt do thatābut still, the horror remained.
Unexpectedly, he lifted my chin and kissed my lips. It lasted for a short time.
āā!ā
—OH FUCK YOU. She’s (probably) having real problem, here, and it took us fucking 51 chapters for her to finally do something that is akin to proper communication–not saying it’s also isn’t done under coercion and out of her own selfishness… my point is, she’s utterly confused and being assaulted by feelings right now, and believe it or not, my dear prince who copied his next action from ol 1990s romance film, kissing doesn’t solve shit. If anything, you’re further confusing her and not to mention, TAKING ADVANTAGE of her vulnerability. Dude, if I am venting about my problem I want someone to listen and offer me actual insight(s), not MOLEST me and do something that will take my mind off the problem? Cuz at the end of the day, the problem will still be there, …fucking bastard.
āTo be honest with you, Tia. Iām glad Tia escaped. Because otherwise, Tia might have died. From the beginning, it was Lady Fern who betrayed Tia. But because she talked to Tia, she changed her mind. Then, because of hope, Lady Fern turned over a new page and attacked the enemies.ā
It’s not even an understatement to say that this respond of him is just to be expected. He is a self-centered person. He cares not if problem befalls other as long as it isn’t him. Tia, his property, is okay, so why dwell on things? That’s what people with moral and heart would do!
āTia. Instead, you should be proud. Lady Fern also said she was used to killing peopleāin the end, she managed to save a life, instead. It was none other than Tia who changed her mind.ā
STOP JUSTIFYING IT!!!! AND STOP PUTTING TIA ON A PEDESTAL, BITCH ACCOMPLISHED NOTHING THROUGHOUT THIS ENTIRE SERIES. FERN IS DEAD, OFFER YOUR CONDOLENCE, DON’T JUDGE HER?!?!?!?! WHAT KIND OF PERSON ARE YOU!??!?! A MONSTER??!?!!?! OH, I BET THIS IS HOW HE JUSTIFY ALL THE KILLING(S) HE HAD PERSONALLY DONE–“I AM DOING GOOD THING. THEY ARE IRREDEEMABLE FUCKTARDS, ANYWAY, GOOD THING I KILLED THEM.”
āHey, Tia, didnāt Lady Fern at the end say to protect that Shal Ferpia person, and rescue him from hell? If thatās the case, there may be one thing Tia can do.ā
…Did, did I just read this right? Are you guys reading the same thing as me?
BASICALLY, SHE NEEDS WILL TO ACTUALLY FIGURES OUT WHAT SHE CAN DO TO ATONE!? FROM THOSE RECURRING NIGHTMARES, FROM FERN SUPER STRAIGHT TO THE POINT “SAVE SHAL FERPIA FROM HELL”, BITCH CAN CONCLUDE NOTHING?!?!?!
SHE NEEDS WILL TO PUT TWO AND TWO TOGETHER FOR HER?!?!?!?!!??!?!!?!?!??!
SHE CAN’T FIGURE OUT BASIC INSTRUCTION BY HERSELF!??!?!?!?!
I THOUGHT SHE WAS THE DUMBEST FEMML I’VE EVER COME ACROSS. I THOUGHT SHE COULDN’T GET ANY DUMBER. BUT EACH CHAPTER I TRANSLATED, I WAS PROVEN WRONG YET AGAIN.
SHE MUST’VE TAKEN CLASSES TO BE THIS DUMB!!!!!!
…God, Fern must be rolling in the afterlife right now. She chose someone that can’t even follow basic instruction…
I felt troubled because I thought Fern had lied to me. I kept rereading the aristocratās family register many times, but the names written there stayed the same.
…Holy mother of god. ///slums on the floor///
She is a duchess. She doesn’t lack spies to utilize, or connections to use to gather information. But instead, this is what she did. She rereads family register many times, the same piece of paper, hoping a new name would magically appear, and when it didn’t, she called it a day, and accused Fern of lying–
BITCH, YOU WAIT THERE. IMMA FIND A WAY TO GET TO YOUR PLACE AND KNEE YOU ON DA FACE!!!!!!!
āTia, you may not have much time. You should hurry and find what youāre looking for.ā
Towards Willās words, I inadvertently shrank.
I MEAN, YOU DID POSTPONE THE SEARCH FOR MORE THAN A MONTH, AFTER ALL, BECAUSE YOU APPARENTLY CAN’T DEDUCT FROM FERN’S LAST WORDS THAT ‘SAVE SHAL FERPIA FROM THAT HELLHOLE OF A LIFE’ THAT HIS LIFE MIGHT BE IN DIRE SITUATION. WHAT, YOU THINK HE WILL WAIT UNTIL YOU CONVENIENTLY SAVE HIS ASS? I PITY YOU FERN, I PITY YOU. YOU PUT YOUR TRUST IN THE WRONG PERSON.
HOLY FUCK, SHE ALSO NEED WILL TO TELL HER WHAT FEELINGS SHE SHOULD FEEL NEXT.
Will: u should panic Tia.
Tia: ///PANIC///
Translator:
So some of you are confused what ‘first rank/place’ did this story won. It’s a monthly award thing, people would vote for the story, and you know the rest. However, syosetsu doesn’t have subgenres like ‘tragedy, comedy’, and so this story won #1 Romance’ genre. So in the eyes of the people, this story is an ideal romance, the queen of all romance. *spit on the floor
after pausing and resuming reading this i have to say: i held on only for the tn but im done. i think ill stick to reading the tn roasting and skipping the chapter…
tyvm, the tns are such a good contrast to the mess of a story and you are a gem for holding on and finishing the arc!
Wow, that speech of the princes. He is such a deranged ML. Wheres Vioris? He seemed like a genuinely normal, and good person. Can’t we have him back? sobs please?
Best romance?! BEST ROMANCE!?! What the actual f-ck?!
I still don’t give a fk about ferns death. I’m sorry but I wasn’t able to establish an emotional connection with her.
Damn she is such a child. But then again she’s like 15.you know how hormonal, angsty and stupid 15 years old can get? Its that Time of your life when you feel like you’re an adult and you want to be treated like one but in reality you’re really acting like a spoiled brat who thinks the world or yiur parents owes you everything. Well that sounds harsh. ?? It’s this novel. This is why I no longer read YA. 15-18 years old are CHILDREN ?? you’ll realize that when you reach 20+ and gathered enough sense about the real world
But sis she has experienced a lot you think a character development wouldve happened…
The author should just move this story to Moonlight Syosetsu, add some R18 stuffs and be done with it.
Wait, did we actually get some character development here? I could have sworn —
“…bite my finger.”
Nope, nothing to see here folks. Nothing at all.
THERE GOES THAT HOPE. FALLING LIKE A FIREWORK
Well… The fact that Tia thinks and feels exactly what Will wants is proof that she is Willās property, right?
Seriously though, the undertones in this story makes it seems like the author tried to turn horror in to romance…
I donāt want to spit on the floor. I want to puke on their face. Really, I endure this it almost end lol because I want to see how these 2 idiots endings look like
I add a like at the end, not for the story but for the T/L’ s effort. Thanks for the translation!
just a little more, just a little more and this slag story will be over. Don’t give up on me now brain we came this far, we just need to make to the end. Just A Little MORE.
6 more chapters and we will be done.
Wait, 6? I thought Novel Updates said 54 was supposed to be the end. Are you saying this arc is going into the extra chapters? ……Really? Really?
Also no one cares about the bunch of kids left at that church since ‘none of the have families or anything’ they’ll stay there for the rest of their youth until they can get jobs, presumably as adventurers where most of them will get wiped out due to really bad supervision. Yeaaaah~~.
Yeah. There are 3 extras. And rather than extras they feel like author’s attempt to cover the plotholes. WE HAVE TO SEE IT.
I only caught up because I thought this was going to END.
Cleanse. Cleanse this trashfire of idiocy and lies.
Ugh. Much appreciated for braving this swamp. If you need to detox, here’s this forgotten good ‘un. You know, an ACTUAL romance.
https://www.novelupdates.com/series/flowers-for-the-forest-beasts/
I have a confession, I have only been skim reading this story since 20 plus chapters ago, my eyes just go to the end to read the breakdown and then comments…
It amazes me how others do not skim… Truly thank you for your dedication. I have been reading a manga called Isekai Ojiisan š its quite an interesting twist on dense protag and the isekai returnee story š
Thanks for your unending recommendations.
Boy i love melissa so much….. I cant get over my hype for her…
I know right? can you imagine Melissa with this douche? seriously he would be whipped hardcore and hand over his throne to the new Queen without her needing to marry him! screw how much mana he has… she has none and still kicks ass š
I JUST READ THE CH 28 yesterday. Why does it feel the real story has just begun?
We have all 4 main players with our FL all in the palm of Melissas capable hands… smirk, time to swat a few more flies
Fufufu raws for 29 are up! https://newtoki64.com/webtoon/1691296?toon=%EC%9D%BC%EB%B0%98%EC%9B%B9%ED%88%B0
WHY IS IT SO FAST
https://newtoki64.com/webtoon/2331083 < this is 29 the above is 24 doh lol
THANKS OMG MELISSA SITTING IN THE BALCONY POLISHING SWORD IS THE COOLEST THING IVE EVER SEENMN TODAY
It’s beautiful especially when she has it in her hands next to those douche bags š
Latte from Miss side kick is much like Melissa just does not have that villainess aura or potty mouth, she gets on well with her family as well, Latte is the meme queen though. Latte has good money making skills š she is an observer, a spectator that does get involved a lot lol, unlike Mel who goes in and gets her hands dirty regularly š
Kuq ku try reading i am a duchess who have rewound 9 times. The mc is similar to melissa
I didn’t think you would like that one but yes I am reading this also Ive been digging the Manhwa scene of late. Its not funny like Melissa lol
FUUUUCKKK CHITRA IS FULL OF BEAUTIFUL. MEEEEEN I AM SATIATED
Well she is a follower of the God of beauty… that shit eating rabbit ?
SLow updates too…
The older looking one with the short hair and glasses looks fking yum š he builds for Chitra that towere š if it was a toss up between him and Delice I just would say screw it lets make a harem! and I hate harems lol… shame… SHAME! collapses… but I demand to snatch that dude as well! Lattes man is too pretty there’s no way I would tolerate such a guy as my man, he would make me feel envious and hateful… Melissas Nine I would keep as well coz hes just too adorable, it would be wrong to say as a pet, but yes that is what he would be a pet!
Tia and Will need to sterilize themselves, otherwise their progeny will either die due to lack of oxygen to the brain or spread their dna far and wide lowering the quality of humanity for the future generations.
“As soon as he heard my words, Will ordered Marie and Kevin out of the room. They were surprised, but adhering.”
THIS IS WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT WHEN I SAID WILL CAN DO ANYTHING INSIDE HIS PRIVATE ROOM AND THE SERVANTS AIN’T GOT ANYTHING TO SAY AGAINST IT!!!!
āThe daughter of Count Ferpia? She suddenly went missing.ā
FERN IS THE DAUGHRER OF A COUNT AND THEY AIN’T GOT PLANS ABOUT TELLING HER FAMILY OF HER DEATH. LOOKING FOR FERN’S CORPSE TO BE GIVEN A PROPER FUNERAL DIDN’T EVEN CROSS TIA’S……..AGAIN TIA DOESN’T HAVE A BRAIN SO I GUESS I SHOULDN’T EXPECT SUCH FROM HER. MY FAULT.
āTia, donāt bite your lips. If you want to bite something, then bite my finger.ā
AWWW!!! HOW SWEET…….. IS NOT SOMETHING I WOULD SAY. BUT YEAH I AGREE, GO ON TIA BITE IT! BITE THAT GODDAMN FINGER LIKE A RABID DOG. BITE IT SO HARD UNTIL IT GETS RIPPED OFF!!! IF YOU CAN’T THEN SHOW ME THAT DAMNED FINGER AND IM’MA CUT EM ALL OFF AND TURN IT INTO A MEAL FOR THE STRAY DOGS.
“Unexpectedly, he lifted my chin and kissed my lips. It lasted for a short time.”
SEE!!!!! HAVEN’T I SAID IT ALREADY!!!!! THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU UNWITTINGLY ENTER A PERVERT’S LAIR!!! YOU GET MOLESTED!!!! AND DAMN IT WILL AREN’T YOU HAVING A SERIOUS CONVERSATION WITH TIA???? WHY THIS???? DO YOU REALLY HAVE TO USE YOUR BOTTOM HEAD TO THINK HERE?????
That was the first time Will had ever kissed me.
AND MARK MY WORDS, THIS AIN’T GOING TO BE THE LAST AND CHANCES ARE HIGH THE NEXT ONE WON’T END WITH JUST A KISS.
“I felt troubled because I thought Fern had lied to me. I kept rereading the aristocratās family register many times, but the names written there stayed the same.”
WTF???!!!!!! SOMETHING IS DEFINITELY WRONG WITH YOUR SKILLS IN SEARCHING FOR CLUES. LADY, IF THE THING YOU WERE LOOKING FOR WAS A SNAKE IT WOULD HAVE BITTEN YOU ALREADY. ISN’T IT OBVIOUS THAT THE COUNT OF FERPIA IS DOING SOMETHING SHADY, SHADIER THAN THE GAMBLERS CULT???? WASN’T FERN’S NOT SO CLEAR BUT SEEMS TO BE TRAGIC, AS THE AUTHOR WANTED TO IMPLY, BACKSTORY THAT SHE MYSTERIOUSLY WAS ABLE TO TELL DESPITE THE PRESSING TIME AND IMPEDING DANGER ENOUGH AS A CLUE THAT THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH COUNT FERPIA’S HOUSEHOLD???? WITH THAT LEVEL OF SHADINESS IT WOULDN’T EVEN BE A WONDER IF HE HAVE MANY HIDDEN CHILDREN ASIDE FROM SHAL FERPIA.
I felt like I shouldnāt rely on the power of Will, the crown prince of the Haulfa Kingdom.
YOU SERIOUSLY DON’T WANT TO RELY ON HIS POWER DESPITE THIS PRESSING LIFE OR DEATH MATTER??? WHY DO I FEEL LIKE YOU JUST WANT TO SATISFY YOUR GUILT AND NOT REALLY HELP????? I FEEL THAT TIA WILL DO A TON OF STUPID THINGS TO FIND SHAL FERPIA BUT SHAL FERPIA WILL DIE IN THE END BECAUSE SHE DID NOT MAKE IT IN TIME BECAUSE SHE SPENT MOST OF HER TIME DOING STUPID THINGS INSTEAD OF DOING SOMETHING THAT CAN ACTUALLY SAVE THE KID, AND THIS SCUM WILL IS GOING TO CONSOLE HER BY SAYING “YOU ALREADY DID YOUR BEST. YOU HAVE NOTHING TO FEEL GUILTY ABOUT. IT’S JUST SHAL FERPIA’S FATE TI DIE AT THAT MOMENT. IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU. AT LEAST NOW HE CAN BE WITH FERN THEY ARE TOGETHER NOW AND THEY ARE SAFE NOW. YOU HAVE NOTHING TO FEEL GUILTY FOR, EVEN FERN WOULD NOT WANT YOU TO FEEL GUILTY ABOUT IT.”
I don’t want to comment about how Will tried to justify Fern’s death, so just insert Chewbacca noises here as my comment for that.
And Commander, as a teacher I am pretty sure there are no classes that can teach them to be this dumb. This dumbness of theirs is most definitely an inborn talent.
P.S.
I have been bothered about this since the last chapter:
“In the corner of the room, was Romaj, and next to him was my personal maid, Marie.”
And this is on the current chapter:
“Will ordered Marie and Kevin out of the room.”
SO WHAT HAPPENED TO THE GUY ROMAJ??? WHEN DID HE GOT SWITCHED OUT WITH KEVIN????
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAAHA YEAH WHAT THE FUCK HAHAHHAHAHAAHA. THE AUTHOR SWITCHED ROMAJ AND KEVIN WHY I AM NOT SURPRISED
AUTHOR SWITCHED THEM AS FAST AS A PICK POCKET IT WAS HARD TO NOTICE.
MAYBE ITS A RIDDLE CHAPTER
Wait…..don’t tell me Romaj fainted like a pokemon does in the middle of the fight so they had to switch him out with Kevin.
It could be that romaj is the only sensible guy and he fainted out of rage seeing his future nation rulers…