I Don't Want to Break off my Engagement... Translation

51. Confession (2)

As soon as he heard my words, Will ordered Marie and Kevin out of the room. They were surprised, but adhering.

Then, once only Will and I remained in the room, I slowly shared the pieces of my heart, one at a time.

“Do you know a noble lady called Fern Ferpia?”

“Fern…?”

With the word ‘Fern’, Will immediately recognized that it was the pseudonym I was using back in Talia. Will sat next to me quietly, before nodding.

“The daughter of Count Ferpia? She suddenly went missing.”

“…Fern stayed with me for a while, before I abandoned her and ran by myself…”

When the words came out of my mouth, the bitterness of that time engulfed me. The feelings became more intense, and I bit my lips involuntarily. Soon enough, I felt a soft touch on my lips, which was Will’s finger. For some reason, Will looked even more in pain than me.

“Will…?”

“Tia, don’t bite your lips. If you want to bite something, then bite my finger.”

“T, that kind of thing…”

“Then, Tia, what did you do…? To think that something like that happen…”

As if my throat was jammed, I had to muster my everything to talk about that day. It was the first time I had told someone about Fern, and Will held my hand tightly. Fern betrayed me, but in the end, she changed her mind. I then abandoned her and fled with the children.

…When I told Will everything without omitting anything—Will made a difficult face.

But, shortly after—

“—Tia.”

He called me with a gentle voice. Even so, perhaps in truth Will was accusing me. He probably thought I was a murderer. Will was kind to me. I knew he wouldn’t do that—but still, the horror remained.

Unexpectedly, he lifted my chin and kissed my lips. It lasted for a short time.

“—!”

Towards the surprised me, Will laughed gently. Then, he softly caressed my head.

That was the first time Will had ever kissed me.

“To be honest with you, Tia. I’m glad Tia escaped. Because otherwise, Tia might have died. From the beginning, it was Lady Fern who betrayed Tia. But because she talked to Tia, she changed her mind. Then, because of hope, Lady Fern turned over a new page and attacked the enemies.”

“…”

“Tia. Instead, you should be proud. Lady Fern also said she was used to killing people—in the end, she managed to save a life, instead. It was none other than Tia who changed her mind.”

“But… I…”

I had abandoned her and ran away.

I killed her.

“Hey, Tia, didn’t Lady Fern at the end say to protect that Shal Ferpia person, and rescue him from hell? If that’s the case, there may be one thing Tia can do.”

Will’s words caused me to lean forward.

Fern certainly had mentioned ‘Shal Ferpia’. Immediately after I had returned to the Kingdom of Haulfa, I discovered something strange—Count Ferpia had no other children than Fern.

I felt troubled because I thought Fern had lied to me. I kept rereading the aristocrat’s family register many times, but the names written there stayed the same.

“Tia, I will assist you in your search. Shal Ferpia is the name, right? If we look together, we may find something.”

When Will told me so, I shook my head fervently. I had to solve this myself. I felt like I shouldn’t rely on the power of Will, the crown prince of the Haulfa Kingdom.

But Will then smiled in annoyance as he dropped another kiss on my temple.

“You’re stubborn, Tia, but I love that about you.”

“Wha! Hey!”

“Tia, you may not have much time. You should hurry and find what you’re looking for.”

Towards Will’s words, I inadvertently shrank.


***T/N:

Then, once only Will and I remained in the room, I slowly shared the pieces of my heart, one at a time.

INSTEAD OF SHARING IT HOW ABOUT STABBING IT TO PIECES SO WE DON’T HAVE TO SUFFER ANYMORE!?

The author surely didn’t do any research about PTSD if she thought the drawbacks are merely lip-biting and recurring nightmare.

“Tia, don’t bite your lips. If you want to bite something, then bite my finger.”

THIS IS HARDLY THE TIME AND PLACE, MISTER. THIS IS HARDLY THE TIME AND PLACE.

He called me with a gentle voice. Even so, perhaps in truth Will was accusing me. He probably thought I was a murderer. Will was kind to me. I knew he wouldn’t do that—but still, the horror remained.

Unexpectedly, he lifted my chin and kissed my lips. It lasted for a short time.

“—!”

OH FUCK YOU. She’s (probably) having real problem, here, and it took us fucking 51 chapters for her to finally do something that is akin to proper communication–not saying it’s also isn’t done under coercion and out of her own selfishness… my point is, she’s utterly confused and being assaulted by feelings right now, and believe it or not, my dear prince who copied his next action from ol 1990s romance film, kissing doesn’t solve shit. If anything, you’re further confusing her and not to mention, TAKING ADVANTAGE of her vulnerability. Dude, if I am venting about my problem I want someone to listen and offer me actual insight(s), not MOLEST me and do something that will take my mind off the problem? Cuz at the end of the day, the problem will still be there, …fucking bastard.

“To be honest with you, Tia. I’m glad Tia escaped. Because otherwise, Tia might have died. From the beginning, it was Lady Fern who betrayed Tia. But because she talked to Tia, she changed her mind. Then, because of hope, Lady Fern turned over a new page and attacked the enemies.”

It’s not even an understatement to say that this respond of him is just to be expected. He is a self-centered person. He cares not if problem befalls other as long as it isn’t him. Tia, his property, is okay, so why dwell on things? That’s what people with moral and heart would do!

“Tia. Instead, you should be proud. Lady Fern also said she was used to killing people—in the end, she managed to save a life, instead. It was none other than Tia who changed her mind.”

STOP JUSTIFYING IT!!!! AND STOP PUTTING TIA ON A PEDESTAL, BITCH ACCOMPLISHED NOTHING THROUGHOUT THIS ENTIRE SERIES. FERN IS DEAD, OFFER YOUR CONDOLENCE, DON’T JUDGE HER?!?!?!?! WHAT KIND OF PERSON ARE YOU!??!?! A MONSTER??!?!!?! OH, I BET THIS IS HOW HE JUSTIFY ALL THE KILLING(S) HE HAD PERSONALLY DONE–“I AM DOING GOOD THING. THEY ARE IRREDEEMABLE FUCKTARDS, ANYWAY, GOOD THING I KILLED THEM.”

“Hey, Tia, didn’t Lady Fern at the end say to protect that Shal Ferpia person, and rescue him from hell? If that’s the case, there may be one thing Tia can do.”

…Did, did I just read this right? Are you guys reading the same thing as me?

BASICALLY, SHE NEEDS WILL TO ACTUALLY FIGURES OUT WHAT SHE CAN DO TO ATONE!? FROM THOSE RECURRING NIGHTMARES, FROM FERN SUPER STRAIGHT TO THE POINT “SAVE SHAL FERPIA FROM HELL”, BITCH CAN CONCLUDE NOTHING?!?!?!

SHE NEEDS WILL TO PUT TWO AND TWO TOGETHER FOR HER?!?!?!?!!??!?!!?!?!??!

SHE CAN’T FIGURE OUT BASIC INSTRUCTION BY HERSELF!??!?!?!?!

I THOUGHT SHE WAS THE DUMBEST FEMML I’VE EVER COME ACROSS. I THOUGHT SHE COULDN’T GET ANY DUMBER. BUT EACH CHAPTER I TRANSLATED, I WAS PROVEN WRONG YET AGAIN.

SHE MUST’VE TAKEN CLASSES TO BE THIS DUMB!!!!!!

…God, Fern must be rolling in the afterlife right now. She chose someone that can’t even follow basic instruction…

I felt troubled because I thought Fern had lied to me. I kept rereading the aristocrat’s family register many times, but the names written there stayed the same.

…Holy mother of god. ///slums on the floor///

She is a duchess. She doesn’t lack spies to utilize, or connections to use to gather information. But instead, this is what she did. She rereads family register many times, the same piece of paper, hoping a new name would magically appear, and when it didn’t, she called it a day, and accused Fern of lying–

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BITCH, YOU WAIT THERE. IMMA FIND A WAY TO GET TO YOUR PLACE AND KNEE YOU ON DA FACE!!!!!!!

“Tia, you may not have much time. You should hurry and find what you’re looking for.”

Towards Will’s words, I inadvertently shrank.

I MEAN, YOU DID POSTPONE THE SEARCH FOR MORE THAN A MONTH, AFTER ALL, BECAUSE YOU APPARENTLY CAN’T DEDUCT FROM FERN’S LAST WORDS THAT ‘SAVE SHAL FERPIA FROM THAT HELLHOLE OF A LIFE’ THAT HIS LIFE MIGHT BE IN DIRE SITUATION. WHAT, YOU THINK HE WILL WAIT UNTIL YOU CONVENIENTLY SAVE HIS ASS? I PITY YOU FERN, I PITY YOU. YOU PUT YOUR TRUST IN THE WRONG PERSON.

HOLY FUCK, SHE ALSO NEED WILL TO TELL HER WHAT FEELINGS SHE SHOULD FEEL NEXT.

Will: u should panic Tia.

Tia: ///PANIC///

Translator:

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So some of you are confused what ‘first rank/place’ did this story won. It’s a monthly award thing, people would vote for the story, and you know the rest. However, syosetsu doesn’t have subgenres like ‘tragedy, comedy’, and so this story won #1 Romance’ genre. So in the eyes of the people, this story is an ideal romance, the queen of all romance. *spit on the floor

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