54. Extra Edition/ Awareness of Love
āWill, back in Talia, I couldnāt find it in me to beckon to you.ā
ā…āthatāsāwhy?ā
Will sat next to me as if he was in fixed position. With my waist pulled, I leaned my head on Willās chest without resistance. Will was patting my head, but his hand stopped when he heard what I just said.
It wasnāt like I had any problems with it …Will sure did love patting my head a lot. He did it carefully so as to not mess my hair, so I had no complaints, but it was kind of ticklish.
It was quite funny of a situation. Willās hand, which could cast the most powerful magic in the world with merely a finger, was treating me like a fragile object.
āI didnāt understand why I did so at that time… why didnāt I want to shout to you… if you caught me, I would be able to return to Haulfa, sooner.ā
āāācaughtā… youāre right. Iāll always find you, and catch you, Tiaājust like right now.ā
After saying so, Will hugged meākyu. The scent of Will not only relaxed me, but made my body temperature rise.
āW, Will!ā
I was the one who was caught. But rather than complaining, my consciousness was preoccupied by the close contact and the body temperature, and also the sensation of the skin that was transmitted in various ways.
Despite the obstructing clothes, Willās smooth muscles touched my flanks, causing my body heat to rise dramaticallyāIt was embarrassing, I could only say nothing.
āWell, itās fine. If youāre bring this up now, does that mean youāve found out the reason why?ā
āU, um…?ā
Afterwards, I finally understood the reason. However, the reason was so embarrassing, I was confused.
āHm?ā
Will peered at my face. My face was reflected in his green eyesāI was so red. I thought I was a person with stiff facial expression… but it turned out I could make such a face. The thought just suddenly occurred to me.
āY, y, you wonāt laugh at me?ā
I was too embarrassed, I was too overwhelmed to speak properly. Although Will was blinking, he narrowed his eyes and looked at me with a fluttering gaze akin to melting honey. It was embarrassing! Very embarrassing!
But I also somehow felt happy about itāI didnāt understand myself.
āOf course, I wonāt laugh at anything you say, Tia.ā
A low, faint voice took my earlobe. I suddenly took a breath and forced my words out.
ā…Because,ā
āHuh?ā
ā…Because I didnāt want to meet Will in such a distasteful appearance…ā
ā…Distasteful?ā
After a while, Will blinked his eyes and asked me again.
I was shy to open up. It was important for humans to open up. I looked up at Will with a bright and convinced eye, and after gazing at him for a while…
ā…At that time, you see, the battle had just ended! My hair was messy! My clothes were muddy! I couldnāt bear being seen like that!ā
As I recalled my embarrassing state at that time, my voice gradually weakened and I finally became quiet. I couldnāt see Willās reaction. I was scared.
My current appearance was that of a lady, but at that time… my hair was messy, my clothes were covered with mud, and even my hair might have been covered with mud and dirt…
When I thought so, I was ready to faint. Maybe I wasnāt worried because I was too shocked back then, but whenever I recalled that moment, it was too awful!
I was so scared of Willās reaction… until I heard him sigh.
ā…Tia.ā
āW, what?ā
āCan I kiss you?ā
āAs I thought, I was in a shameful stateāhuh!?ā
āSorry, Iāll do it now.ā
āEh, ehānnn!ā
While Iām thrown into confusion by Willās word, he already put his hand on my chin, lifted my face, and replied shortly afterwardsāhe stole my lips. It felt fluffy. Willās scent approached, and I breathed on the softness of his lips. It was so noisy as if my heart wasnāt merely pounding, but playing a drum.
With a gentle touch, as if touching cotton candy, Will lifted his face and looked at me with gentle eyes.
āTia, as long as youāre Tia, I donāt care how you look.ā
āA, as long as I am me?ā
āThatās right, as long as Tia is Tia. Yes, Tia is alright as you are. Whatever you wear, no matter what you look like, Tiaās brilliance will not be lost. To me, Tia always looks more beautiful and lovable than anyone else. …I love you, Tia.ā
āW, Will… umm…ā
My face became hot again at his sudden love confession. When Will saw such a me, he gently touched my cheek. He smiled while gently caressing it. It was a smile that made me realize he really did think only of me.
āTia… I love you.ā
āMe, me too… I love you, Will.ā
It was embarrassing and became even more soābut this feeling of mine wouldnāt change. I also confessed to Will with wavering voice. When he saw me like that, his expression broke as he hugged me gently. The hug was warm, I almost burst into tears.
***T/N: …Okay,Ā so why did this chapter exist again? Let me see…
54. Extra Edition/ Awareness of Love
Or you can just read it as ‘What I am forced to write cuz my readers won’t stop PM-ing me about the jarring massive plot holes in my story’. Yeah, it can and commonly happen in syosetsu, you guys.Ā
I think the author is confronted with the fact that too many people are just not ready for the greatness that was her writing, hence the great love story she’s trying to portray doesn’t come across toĀ tooĀ many people–and the title already told you that many people don’t buy that Tia love Will. So this chapter will be dealing with that dolts’ feelings, let us see the Author’s attempt on fixing her story…
āWill, back in Talia, I couldnāt find it in me to beckon to you.ā
ā…āthatāsāwhy?ā
*As Tia: “Because, I don’t know! The author was so sure that you guys bought my guilt for Fern, and won’t question anything–therefore,Ā I am shockedĀ that you guys actually needed a more compelling reason.Ā I don’t know what’s happening,Ā aren’t you guys just supposed to nod along with what I am saying, if I say I feel guilty for Fern, I feel guilty for Fern. If I say I love Will, I love Will–what? You said that my feelingsĀ lack evidences? There’s nothing to back up my words? Why? What??? I am sorry, I can’t process any of what you’re saying…”
Will sat next to me as if he was in fixed position. With my waist pulled, I leaned my head on Willās chest without resistance.
I don’t know what romance book did you use as an inspiration and a model for your story, but I assure you–the words ‘without resistance’ are unnecessary. If the couple actually loved and feel comfortable around each other, then those words, without even needed to be written or implied, are already obvious! …Oh wait, what am I talking about. That’s if the relationship is actually healthy and build of trust and communication! We’re talking about a dysfunctional one, here! Her not showing resistance for once prove her love for him!
It wasnāt like I had any problems with it …Will sure did love patting my head a lot. He did it carefully so as to not mess my hair, so I had no complaints, but it was kind of ticklish.
You sure about that??? You sure that he will stop at merely patting your head??? Will sound like that guy who will rip open your dress, causing the buttons falling to the floor sfx on r-18 stories…
It was quite funny of a situation. Willās hand, which could cast the most powerful magic in the world with merely a finger, was treating me like a fragile object.
WHY IS IT FUNNY TIA?! CMON, WHAT ARE YOU IMPLYING HERE?! SO HE USUALLY TREAT YOU HARSHLY?!
āāācaughtā… youāre right. Iāll always find you, and catch you, Tiaājust like right now.ā
//in a broken voice/// Hahahahahahaha–FUCK!!!! IVE NEVER BEEN HIT BY A RED FLAG ACROSS MY FACE THIS HARD BEFORE!!!!
I was the one who was caught. But rather than complaining, my consciousness was preoccupied by the close contact and the body temperature, and also the sensation of the skin that was transmitted in various ways.
More evidence of Will taking advantage of Tia’s braindeadness.
Despite the obstructing clothes, Willās smooth muscles touched my flanks, causing my body heat to rise dramaticallyāIt was embarrassing, I could only say nothing.
Boi, the author sure is thirsty.
Afterwards, I finally understood the reason. However, the reason was so embarrassing, I was confused.
*As Tia: “Before, I didn’t know the reason, the author also didn’t plan to think of a proper reason, but now, after people endlessly pointing it out, the author is forced to come up with one, and I am now confused by the new knowledge injected into my brain that is supposed to be a reason I think off myself hence I am monologuing unnaturally and stunted as usual!”
ā…At that time, you see, the battle had just ended! My hair was messy! My clothes were muddy! I couldnāt bear being seen like that!ā
As I recalled my embarrassing state at that time, my voice gradually weakened and I finally became quiet. I couldnāt see Willās reaction. I was scared.
My current appearance was that of a lady, but at that time… my hair was messy, my clothes were covered with mud, and even my hair might have been covered with mud and dirt…
When I thought so, I was ready to faint. Maybe I wasnāt worried because I was too shocked back then, but whenever I recalled that moment, it was too awful!
So… So this is the Author’s definition of love? You… you sure this is the message you wanna convey to the world, Author? You sure this won’t attest to your own shallowness, instead? You’re seriously writing this?
You’re seriously saying, ‘If you love someone, THEN YOU WOULDN’T WANNA SHOW THEM YOUR DIRTY, MESSY, UNELEGANT APPEAREANCE! EVEN IF IT MEAN DEATH! YES! THE EMBARASSMENT IS TOO GREAT, TIA READILY ABANDON HER CHANCE TO RETURN TO HER HOME, HER FORMER LIFE, HER FAMILY–BECAUSE OF LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!’–No, that’s just being ‘vain’.Ā
Tia, up there ain’t love, but VANITY TALK.
It takes me back Author. It takes me back to those chapters where you unfortunately implied that plump girl is ‘undeserved of love, won’t get a good ending, won’t be happy, doesn’t look like a lady…’ I don’t wanna judge you too much, but I think at this point it’s already clear enough that you think appearance is theĀ cornerstoneĀ of a relationship–just like how Ganet thinks Tia and Will are a perfect couple just cuz they’re beautiful, and now, Tia is fussing as if she’s gonna die if Will saw her in her dirtied state, and you name the chapter as ‘awareness of LOVE’… and also many more instances strewn along the entire series that I’ve thankfully forgotten…
…Instead of anything, you’ve convinced me that this shallow hoe named Tia loves herselfĀ to death.Ā This awareness of love you’re talking about is how Tia becomes aware of how much she lovesĀ herself,Ā yes? Because that would be consistent with all the shallowness she had shown until now.
āEh, ehānnn!ā
UUUOOOGHHHH–!!!!! BLEARRRGHHH–!!!!!!!!!! //Translator cries in seppuku
āTia, as long as youāre Tia, I donāt care how you look.ā
What do you fucking mean, bitch has a personality as bland as a heavily watered soup base!
āThatās right, as long as Tia is Tia. Yes, Tia is alright as you are. Whatever you wear, no matter what you look like, Tiaās brilliance will not be lost. To me, Tia always looks more beautiful and lovable than anyone else. …I love you, Tia.ā
WHAT BRILLIANCE!? BITCH HAS A PERSONALITY AS DULL AS A SEVEN YEARS OLD LEFT TO ROT PIECE OF ROOF THAT GOT BLOWN AWAY DURING THE STORM!!!
He smiled while gently caressing it. It was a smile that made me realize he really did think only of me.
Of course he did think of you! If not, he won’t babble all those stupid bullshit slash lies just to get inside your pants!
It was embarrassing and became even more soābut this feeling of mine wouldnāt change.
What “feeling of yours” are you talking about?! What “change”!? Oh,Ā oooooooohĀ the author wanna shut the mouth of those people whoĀ dareĀ question Tia’s love. “SEE?! SHE’S ACTUALLY IN LOVE WITH HIM A-L-L T-H-I-S T-I-M-E!”
When he saw me like that, his expression broke as he hugged me gently. The hug was warm, I almost burst into tears.
Yeah, added with the fact that he postpone to save you by a week, and how you can just nonchalantly postpone saving someone else, who is likely dying, by a month a week and a day, you two are indeed a match in heaven.
I THOUGHT THE REASON WHY SHE DIDN’T YELL OUT HIS NAME WAS BECAUSE SHE WAS FERN AT THAT TIME
WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR WOE IS ME, I KILLED SOMEONE SO I’M GOING TO LIVE AS HER UNTIL I REGAIN MY HONOR NARRATIVE TIYA?? GADDAMIT THESE INCONSISTENCIES IS KILLING ME
This is the ACTUAL reason you see.
You and me both. I liked that reason way better than this one.
Sickeningly sweet.
I have a tendency to stop reading stories for a while before getting back into them, having a number of new chapters for me to read. I took a peek here before trying to find the place I was at to see how things ended up. I’m not sure if reading the rest is a good idea now.
Reading them will allow you the opportunity to see the translator upsurp the MC as the heroine of the story through her translator notes.
This, plus discovering another novel that this TL translates heals me enough that I think I can tackle the rest of this story.
Did any Japanese readers roast the author for such sloppy writing?
I dont know how to access the review section in syosetsu
Sometimes author vent in author note “a lot has been pming me” thats how i know this kind of thing happen
I was toady years old when I realised that this slag story makes me want to play Russian Roulette.
I would have dropped this story if not for your great translator comments, so thanks for those. Though by halfway I was skimming the chapters anyway.
I’m not reading this’ because it sounds awful from what I skimmed and what you’ve told me. I’m here to congratulate you. You’re free now’ Antoinette! You never have to pay your eyes on this terrible terrible story again. You made it through! Congratulations!!! Now you can pick up something fun! And hope that the author knows what the he’ll they’re doing!
No there are still two more chapter
Thank you very much for your thoughtfulness to come here!!! I rly wish the great phoenixir would roast the court system in this series hahahhaha
Tell me about it. Is it one of those where solid evidence can be turned over by a claim from someone of high social status? Or are high ranking nobles afforded judicial decisions just by being nobles?
THE PRINCE
“IF THERE IS NO EVIDENCE YOU CAN JUST FORGE IT”
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What about the investigation? The Prince is an idiot too, I see.
Cause its magic it cant be proven it seems.
He frames the 1st girl fully knowing she is innocent just because and forge evidence to cement her execution.
The second girl is about to go through the same thing too, except that she is actually guilty but not enough evidence for some reason even tho she kills ppl left and right.
This is the male lead we are supposed to like.
Oh, not an idiot, a manipulative jackass. But in a world with magic shouldn’t there be ways to investigate magic and use it as evidence? Or are we dealing with a society of idiots, too?
Author doesn’t do her research.
THERE IS A PLASTIC BAG IN MEDIEVAL TIMES.
Plastic bag? I can excuse that if alchemy exists Does it? Otherwise it makes no sense and is just lazy.
Nope. No chemistry. The thing about this series is, the author does a piss poor job at world building. She never explain shit. When she want to do a plot twist, instead of a proper build up, she WITHHOLD shit from us. Later after the twist happen she would infodump things to the reader, which isn’t really effective at all.
One time she even wrote “anyone with magic would understand that” passive aggressively to excuse her lack of explanation behind her world magic system.
Ah yes, the, “It’s magic, I don’t have to explain it,” excuse. It’s still stupid. News flash, explaining the world’s magic system would seem complaints.
Phoenixir, what would happen to both party if a prince succumb to his base urge and rape a duchess?
Depends on the kingdom and time period.
Unfortunately, in ancient times there would be no consequence for the prince, because he’s usually already engaged or married and thus doesn’t have to take responsibility or he would of the t
Royal family is polygamous. And you can’t treat a Prince harshly, because royalty is the highest social position. It’s an asshole escape for royalty. The duchess, however would be ruined socially and politically. She would indeed be treated like a pariah, even if the truth was known. If it came out to the public they can pity her, but they can’t champion her because to speak against royalty is to disparage the King and country. Purity was valued back then, so her chances of marriage plummet. Even if she was already married or engaged, she’d be treated as an adulterer and her reputation would plummet. If the duchess
as engaged to the prince, it would r brushed off as, boys will be boys and the wedding would happen immediately. Now flash forwarding a bit or going to a country where the aristocracy has more power, the prince would be disinherited/exiled and the duchess would be adopted into the Royal family to save face. That’s about how such a situation would go in the monarchy I’m familiar with.
This morning someone countered my comment about how i hate rape disguised as love in story by basically telling me how i should think
“If its emperor/ prince theres nothing u can do about it because they are absolute. So keep that in mind and u should go with that mindset”
So i just answered “if a dude rape someone just cuz his authority allow him so, that says more about him rather than the era he lives in. It means dude is a selfish pig. Just cause it s allowed doesnt mean you should do it?????????? ”
Rape is very common in cn and the readers are so casual about it.
Personally, rape is very triggering for me.
I agree with you. Except for the pig part because I like pigs. He’s a mold scum asshole. I don’t know why rape is so prominent in Chinese stories…I’ve read 8 comics where it is used as a plot device or Stockholm syndrome is written as love.
I wont even try to understand that kind of story. Disgusting.
Right? And yet that kind of thing keeps circulating. It’s mysterious. It’s almost like there’s a conspiracy to keep those kind of stories in circulation.
Do you think its bullshit when someone said “a writing doesnt necessarily reflect the author’s view” to justify rape?
Yes. Although I don’t like it in stories because it’s horrible, in these kinds of stories there are 3 ways to treat it. One is to treat it seriously: dealing with the consequences, addressing the trust issues that will arise, portraying the fear that stems from the experience, showing that the victim is traumatized and not dismissing it.
The second way is to treat it dismissively. Saying, “Oh, it’s a product if the times. It was common back then.” Saying, “Oh there’s nothing that anyone can do since the rapist was high in the hierarchy. Or saying “their married or going to be he just got a little excited” or and this offends me as an equalist, saying, “Boys will be boys! It’s to be expected.” Which no it’s not. Men, generally aren’t terrible monsters that assault people when their horny. Woman have the right to be offended by the event.
And the third is to deal with it as comedy. Just waiving the issue of consent. Which is hack writing.
Incidentally if it’s about a woman raping a man every point still applies just with the genders swapped around.
Writing does indeed convey your viewpoint in the subject.
Right??? The only way to not pour your own view into a writing is to dislodge your brain when you are writing!
Or having your editor breathing over your neck going, “Haah Haah, write this. It appeals to my taste, so it will surely appeal to everyone else.”
Is it justifiable for me to label the femmc as having a ‘concubine mindset’ cuz all she ever worried about when she becomes queen is the king taking another wife “noooo what if i am not pretty enough”
Yes. It’s not even a top concubine mindset. That’s very much how a bottom rank concubine would react?
Back then as a 12 yo i would see her “”””””””purity”””””””” as an asset. But now, i feel like her parents are doing shit ass job at teaching her to be a future ruler
Yeah. For me it was 11. Just the author clearly doesn’t understand a wholly pure(and I’m using the Japanese context of pure) character isn’t a good character and needs depth. But from what you’ve told me, the girl is pure in mind but her heart definitely isn’t. She’s just…stupid. And her parents are indeed terrible for allowing a future queen to be stupid
To think… this story started off so well… then its rapid descent into madness followed… eyes glaze over… you know I have very selective reading skills while skimming… I can automatically ignore anything I do not want to read, which was most of this chapter.
BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
hv the beware the villainess raw updated?
Not yet still hwaitin, the new fish that joined the Heroines Harem looks fun š still have not seen Melissas Bro lurking around in a while, no doubt he is keeping the Prince company lol… wonder when he will make a love connection with the heroine, in my mind she looks ready to go full tilt Yuri for Melissa š
This is probably my shortest Tia roast……I couldn’t muster strength and bravery to read the chapter properly cause the title put me off. Just reading the title I could tell that this is a contender for the worst Tia chapter. Where is the love between these two??? One is just obssessed with her and really it is not love while the other thinks she is in love but in reality she just loves herself and is very vain. Just look at what she did she didn’t want Will to rescue her and bring her back to Haulfa because she didn’t want him to see her all dirty even though it would mean she could go back earlier to her kingdom and save the kid named Shal as requested by the dead Lady Fern. Really where is the love here. I didn’t want to read about two idiots flirting and end up having to disinfect my eyes so I just skimmed it to get the gist of it. I am really glad I didn’t read it properly, seeing how long Commander’s roast after is I can already tell how awful the chapter is.
Do you loathe this chapter?
The title says it all…..
I’ll be honest with you: I only recently picked up this series, but not cuz of the story itself, but your hilarious and on-point T/N commentary.
Thanks for the TL notes! Did they ever actually save the rest of the kids from that mansion or are we just supposed to forget it ever existed? Ya know, since Fern called it “Hell” or something along those lines?