I Don't Want to Break off my Engagement... Translation

54. Extra Edition/ Awareness of Love

“Will, back in Talia, I couldn’t find it in me to beckon to you.”

“…—that’s—why?”

Will sat next to me as if he was in fixed position. With my waist pulled, I leaned my head on Will’s chest without resistance. Will was patting my head, but his hand stopped when he heard what I just said.

It wasn’t like I had any problems with it …Will sure did love patting my head a lot. He did it carefully so as to not mess my hair, so I had no complaints, but it was kind of ticklish.

It was quite funny of a situation. Will’s hand, which could cast the most powerful magic in the world with merely a finger, was treating me like a fragile object.

“I didn’t understand why I did so at that time… why didn’t I want to shout to you… if you caught me, I would be able to return to Haulfa, sooner.”

“—‘caught’… you’re right. I’ll always find you, and catch you, Tia—just like right now.”

After saying so, Will hugged me—kyu. The scent of Will not only relaxed me, but made my body temperature rise.

“W, Will!”

I was the one who was caught. But rather than complaining, my consciousness was preoccupied by the close contact and the body temperature, and also the sensation of the skin that was transmitted in various ways.

Despite the obstructing clothes, Will’s smooth muscles touched my flanks, causing my body heat to rise dramatically—It was embarrassing, I could only say nothing.

“Well, it’s fine. If you’re bring this up now, does that mean you’ve found out the reason why?”

“U, um…?”

Afterwards, I finally understood the reason. However, the reason was so embarrassing, I was confused.

“Hm?”

Will peered at my face. My face was reflected in his green eyes—I was so red. I thought I was a person with stiff facial expression… but it turned out I could make such a face. The thought just suddenly occurred to me.

“Y, y, you won’t laugh at me?”

I was too embarrassed, I was too overwhelmed to speak properly. Although Will was blinking, he narrowed his eyes and looked at me with a fluttering gaze akin to melting honey. It was embarrassing! Very embarrassing!

But I also somehow felt happy about it—I didn’t understand myself.

“Of course, I won’t laugh at anything you say, Tia.”

A low, faint voice took my earlobe. I suddenly took a breath and forced my words out.

“…Because,”

“Huh?”

“…Because I didn’t want to meet Will in such a distasteful appearance…”

“…Distasteful?”

After a while, Will blinked his eyes and asked me again.

I was shy to open up. It was important for humans to open up. I looked up at Will with a bright and convinced eye, and after gazing at him for a while…

“…At that time, you see, the battle had just ended! My hair was messy! My clothes were muddy! I couldn’t bear being seen like that!”

As I recalled my embarrassing state at that time, my voice gradually weakened and I finally became quiet. I couldn’t see Will’s reaction. I was scared.

My current appearance was that of a lady, but at that time… my hair was messy, my clothes were covered with mud, and even my hair might have been covered with mud and dirt…

When I thought so, I was ready to faint. Maybe I wasn’t worried because I was too shocked back then, but whenever I recalled that moment, it was too awful!

I was so scared of Will’s reaction… until I heard him sigh.

“…Tia.”

“W, what?”

“Can I kiss you?”

“As I thought, I was in a shameful state—huh!?”

“Sorry, I’ll do it now.”

“Eh, eh—nnn!”

While I’m thrown into confusion by Will’s word, he already put his hand on my chin, lifted my face, and replied shortly afterwards—he stole my lips. It felt fluffy. Will’s scent approached, and I breathed on the softness of his lips. It was so noisy as if my heart wasn’t merely pounding, but playing a drum.

With a gentle touch, as if touching cotton candy, Will lifted his face and looked at me with gentle eyes.

“Tia, as long as you’re Tia, I don’t care how you look.”

“A, as long as I am me?”

“That’s right, as long as Tia is Tia. Yes, Tia is alright as you are. Whatever you wear, no matter what you look like, Tia’s brilliance will not be lost. To me, Tia always looks more beautiful and lovable than anyone else. …I love you, Tia.”

“W, Will… umm…”

My face became hot again at his sudden love confession. When Will saw such a me, he gently touched my cheek. He smiled while gently caressing it. It was a smile that made me realize he really did think only of me.

“Tia… I love you.”

“Me, me too… I love you, Will.”

It was embarrassing and became even more so—but this feeling of mine wouldn’t change. I also confessed to Will with wavering voice. When he saw me like that, his expression broke as he hugged me gently. The hug was warm, I almost burst into tears.


***T/N: …Okay, so why did this chapter exist again? Let me see…

54. Extra Edition/ Awareness of Love

Or you can just read it as ‘What I am forced to write cuz my readers won’t stop PM-ing me about the jarring massive plot holes in my story’. Yeah, it can and commonly happen in syosetsu, you guys. 

I think the author is confronted with the fact that too many people are just not ready for the greatness that was her writing, hence the great love story she’s trying to portray doesn’t come across to too many people–and the title already told you that many people don’t buy that Tia love Will. So this chapter will be dealing with that dolts’ feelings, let us see the Author’s attempt on fixing her story…

“Will, back in Talia, I couldn’t find it in me to beckon to you.”

“…—that’s—why?”

*As Tia: “Because, I don’t know! The author was so sure that you guys bought my guilt for Fern, and won’t question anything–therefore, I am shocked that you guys actually needed a more compelling reason. I don’t know what’s happening, aren’t you guys just supposed to nod along with what I am saying, if I say I feel guilty for Fern, I feel guilty for Fern. If I say I love Will, I love Will–what? You said that my feelings lack evidences? There’s nothing to back up my words? Why? What??? I am sorry, I can’t process any of what you’re saying…”

Will sat next to me as if he was in fixed position. With my waist pulled, I leaned my head on Will’s chest without resistance.

I don’t know what romance book did you use as an inspiration and a model for your story, but I assure you–the words ‘without resistance’ are unnecessary. If the couple actually loved and feel comfortable around each other, then those words, without even needed to be written or implied, are already obvious! …Oh wait, what am I talking about. That’s if the relationship is actually healthy and build of trust and communication! We’re talking about a dysfunctional one, here! Her not showing resistance for once prove her love for him!

It wasn’t like I had any problems with it …Will sure did love patting my head a lot. He did it carefully so as to not mess my hair, so I had no complaints, but it was kind of ticklish.

You sure about that??? You sure that he will stop at merely patting your head??? Will sound like that guy who will rip open your dress, causing the buttons falling to the floor sfx on r-18 stories…

It was quite funny of a situation. Will’s hand, which could cast the most powerful magic in the world with merely a finger, was treating me like a fragile object.

WHY IS IT FUNNY TIA?! CMON, WHAT ARE YOU IMPLYING HERE?! SO HE USUALLY TREAT YOU HARSHLY?!

“—‘caught’… you’re right. I’ll always find you, and catch you, Tia—just like right now.”

//in a broken voice/// Hahahahahahaha–FUCK!!!! IVE NEVER BEEN HIT BY A RED FLAG ACROSS MY FACE THIS HARD BEFORE!!!!

I was the one who was caught. But rather than complaining, my consciousness was preoccupied by the close contact and the body temperature, and also the sensation of the skin that was transmitted in various ways.

More evidence of Will taking advantage of Tia’s braindeadness.

Despite the obstructing clothes, Will’s smooth muscles touched my flanks, causing my body heat to rise dramatically—It was embarrassing, I could only say nothing.

Boi, the author sure is thirsty.

Afterwards, I finally understood the reason. However, the reason was so embarrassing, I was confused.

*As Tia: “Before, I didn’t know the reason, the author also didn’t plan to think of a proper reason, but now, after people endlessly pointing it out, the author is forced to come up with one, and I am now confused by the new knowledge injected into my brain that is supposed to be a reason I think off myself hence I am monologuing unnaturally and stunted as usual!”

“…At that time, you see, the battle had just ended! My hair was messy! My clothes were muddy! I couldn’t bear being seen like that!”

As I recalled my embarrassing state at that time, my voice gradually weakened and I finally became quiet. I couldn’t see Will’s reaction. I was scared.

My current appearance was that of a lady, but at that time… my hair was messy, my clothes were covered with mud, and even my hair might have been covered with mud and dirt…

When I thought so, I was ready to faint. Maybe I wasn’t worried because I was too shocked back then, but whenever I recalled that moment, it was too awful!

So… So this is the Author’s definition of love? You… you sure this is the message you wanna convey to the world, Author? You sure this won’t attest to your own shallowness, instead? You’re seriously writing this?

You’re seriously saying, ‘If you love someone, THEN YOU WOULDN’T WANNA SHOW THEM YOUR DIRTY, MESSY, UNELEGANT APPEAREANCE! EVEN IF IT MEAN DEATH! YES! THE EMBARASSMENT IS TOO GREAT, TIA READILY ABANDON HER CHANCE TO RETURN TO HER HOME, HER FORMER LIFE, HER FAMILY–BECAUSE OF LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!’–No, that’s just being ‘vain’. 

Tia, up there ain’t love, but VANITY TALK.

It takes me back Author. It takes me back to those chapters where you unfortunately implied that plump girl is ‘undeserved of love, won’t get a good ending, won’t be happy, doesn’t look like a lady…’ I don’t wanna judge you too much, but I think at this point it’s already clear enough that you think appearance is the cornerstone of a relationship–just like how Ganet thinks Tia and Will are a perfect couple just cuz they’re beautiful, and now, Tia is fussing as if she’s gonna die if Will saw her in her dirtied state, and you name the chapter as ‘awareness of LOVE’… and also many more instances strewn along the entire series that I’ve thankfully forgotten…

…Instead of anything, you’ve convinced me that this shallow hoe named Tia loves herself to death. This awareness of love you’re talking about is how Tia becomes aware of how much she loves herself, yes? Because that would be consistent with all the shallowness she had shown until now.

“Eh, eh—nnn!”

UUUOOOGHHHH–!!!!! BLEARRRGHHH–!!!!!!!!!! //Translator cries in seppuku

“Tia, as long as you’re Tia, I don’t care how you look.”

What do you fucking mean, bitch has a personality as bland as a heavily watered soup base!

“That’s right, as long as Tia is Tia. Yes, Tia is alright as you are. Whatever you wear, no matter what you look like, Tia’s brilliance will not be lost. To me, Tia always looks more beautiful and lovable than anyone else. …I love you, Tia.”

WHAT BRILLIANCE!? BITCH HAS A PERSONALITY AS DULL AS A SEVEN YEARS OLD LEFT TO ROT PIECE OF ROOF THAT GOT BLOWN AWAY DURING THE STORM!!!

He smiled while gently caressing it. It was a smile that made me realize he really did think only of me.

Of course he did think of you! If not, he won’t babble all those stupid bullshit slash lies just to get inside your pants!

It was embarrassing and became even more so—but this feeling of mine wouldn’t change.

What “feeling of yours” are you talking about?! What “change”!? Oh, ooooooooh the author wanna shut the mouth of those people who dare question Tia’s love. “SEE?! SHE’S ACTUALLY IN LOVE WITH HIM A-L-L T-H-I-S T-I-M-E!”

When he saw me like that, his expression broke as he hugged me gently. The hug was warm, I almost burst into tears.

Yeah, added with the fact that he postpone to save you by a week, and how you can just nonchalantly postpone saving someone else, who is likely dying, by a month a week and a day, you two are indeed a match in heaven.

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