43. Time Went Forward
As he barged into the room and shouted my name, William who saw me and Lionel became speechless for a moment.
He witnessed me lying on the bed; tears still apparent on my face. Lionel, with one of his knee on the bed, was tightly gripping my right hand from a distance too close to be called comfortable.
William soon returned to his senses and sent a death glare towards Lionel.
āāwhat in the name of, are you doingāā
Williamās voice was so low it could be called a growl as he approached and grabbed Lionel by the collar.
āāwhat have you done to herā?!ā
āā!ā
Anger filled his countenanceāit was as ifā ā¦as if he was witnessing his own lover being harassed.
I couldnāt help but be surprised. William had no reason to make such a faceāat least none that Iām aware ofā¦
Hearing Williamās false accusation, Lionelās face also distorted for a moment, but he soon regained his calm. He stared back at William.
āā¦āEarl Falmouth, isnāt it? You can direct all your jealousy towards meāthat is, if you want to lose your most important thing.ā
āā!?ā
The aura Lionel had just releasedāI was truly familiar with it. My entire body shook with nostalgiaā
āit was certainly the aura of a person that was about to reap a life. William also felt the murderous aura and released Lionel instantly. He took a step back, and then another.
Lionelās stare towards William was full of contempt. Without saying anything, he passed by William.
āStewart, whereās the medicine kit?ā
Lionel called the name of his butler, whom stood in astonishment. Stewart handed him the first aid kit.
I slowly sat up, staring at Lionelās back. My bleeding had already stopped.
I stared at Lewis who didnāt say a word and stood behind William.
When Lewis noticed my gaze, he smiledāa smile that only I could comprehend.
A smile that was full of jet black madness, which crept up to his dark eyes.
āā!ā
His smile let me understand everythingā¦
Everythingāeven the reason for Williamās appearance, was strange. Williamās eyes, which were staring at Lionel, were swirling in deep turmoil.
Deep conflict undoubtedly arose because of Lewisā trickeries.
āā¦ā
ā¦In just one day.
Itās has only been a day since I signed that contract with Lewisāand in such a small amount of timeā¦
ā¦everything had changed, by the hands of Lewis, no doubt.
āthis whole situation⦠so, I truly canāt go back, huh?
āā¦ā
At the end of my line of sight, Lewisā lips distortedāah, yes, that was what he called āsmilingā. He was jeering at me.
āā¦Amelia, you should lie down for a bit more.ā
Lionel, while carrying the first aid kit, said to me.
However, I couldnāt hear him well.
āāā¦ā
A noise that was unbefitting to be called a voice leaked out of my throat.
Williamās pained expression was directed at meāthe same thing also applied to Lewisā distorted mouthāmy heart wailed.
āaah⦠enough already, Iām at my limitā¦
The moment I thought so, something warm dribbled down my cheeks.
āā¦ā
My heart shattered into pieces.
The wall that I had been desperately maintaining until nowāthe armor that had protected my heart was smashed away.
My weak selfāmy true self, was exposed.
āā!!ā
It hurtsā¦! It hurtsā¦! My heart hurtsā¦!
Without my permission, my tears overflowed.
āā¦Amelia?ā
Lionel was peering into my face, which was drenched in tears. I couldnāt even see him anymore.
āHey⦠Elliot⦠Elliot!! Where are you? Why arenāt you here? Why arenāt you here to hold me!?
As I cried, I stared at Williamās face as if to seek consolation.
āāAme, liaā¦ā
Williamās expression wavered. His beautiful eyes swayedāfull of conflict and also frustration as he uttered my name with a pained voice. His beautiful eyes, the color of my favorite, deep, forest.
Oh, Elliot⦠I love you, from the bottom of my heart, I love youā¦!
That day, I smiled at Elliot. Despite my tears overflowing endlessly, I showed Williamāmy true, old smile.
āah⦠what kind of terrible madness is thisā¦?
āā¦Amelia.ā
William called my name with a touched expression. That alone made me happyāthat alone I couldnāt hate, because I loved it.
āAmelia⦠Iā¦ā
Williamās eyes shook. What was reflected upon them, I wonder? Was it love⦠or, sympathy?
But it mattered to me not.
Even though my vision was tearful, I kept staring at William. Tangled, our gazes met.
William squeezed his voice out and whispered;
āAmelia ā¦Iām sorry. Please forgive me.ā
His usually calm countenance was now palpable with remorse. He begged for my forgiveness, however, I didnāt quite catch what he meantābutā¦
When William kept uttering the same words over and overāregret clearly dying his tone, I couldnāt help but to cry even more. His words pulled my heartstring.
āāAmelia, Iām sorry.ā
William whispered so again, andāwith his trembling arms, gently embraced me.
āāā
āthis was what I wanted.
For my entire life, this was what I had always wanted.
Nevertheless, I couldnāt believe in that happinessāthe same way I still couldnāt believe that I was in his arms right now.
āā¦ā
āa sigh leaked again from my throat. It surprised meāat the same time during when I felt pain, I also felt joyāand ā¦being loved.
Williamās voice touched my ears.
āAmelia⦠Iām terribly sorry. I wasnāt there to protect you. Iām very sorryā¦I regret for having left your side.ā
Ah⦠how nostalgic.
Elliotā
āmy dear Elliotā
āheās holding me right now.
Heās touching meāmy back, my hair ā¦and my heart.
I love youā¦
I love you, I love everything about youāā¦
ā¦āthe same way my previous self-used to love you.
For whom was this love of mineā?
I no longer knew.
āI know youāll never forget your old loverābut itās fine. Itās alright. Pleaseāfrom now on, let me protect you. I wonāt ask you to forgive me. I donāt mind being hated by you.ā
Williamās voice trembled from suffering and conflict. His once trembling arms held me tight. It felt very warm⦠and also kind.
āAmelia, please⦠donāt hurt yourself anymore. Donāt cry anymore. From now on, I swear that Iāll protect you. I promise to love you.ā
āoh⦠what nostalgic words those are!
The same words Elliot used to declare his deep affection to me that dayā¦
Williamā⦠Williamā¦ā!
Warm⦠Itās so warmā¦
This was the warmth I had been yearning since forever. I gave up, thinking that it would never come true. But now, I was definitely in his armsā¦
ā¦it didnāt even matter that he was lying right now. I could sense that only part of what he was saying was the truthābut that was fine. I was happy enough.
I slowly returned his embraceāmy arm encircling his back. I wanted to answer himāI wanted to answer himāthat I loved him, too.
Then, he stared at my face, looking very surprised.
āāAmelia⦠are you saying, youāve forgiven me?ā
William looked at me incredulously. I still didnāt understand the reason for his apologizeābut, I showed him my smile.
āāā
His jade-colored eyes widened. There was no longer any doubt in them, only seriousness.
āIāll make you happy. I swear to Godānever shall I leave your side again.ā
His declaration reminded me of Elliot again.
I couldnāt suppress my emotions, and ended up burying my face on Williamās chest.
āā¦Amelia, I love you.ā
His voice tenderly filled my earsāthe voice of my dear William.
āthe town bell resoundedāinforming the daytime. The rain had stopped and the chimes of the bell rang clearly with blue skies as its backdrop. A Rainbow formed in all of its glory.
It was like a blessing for our reunionāagain and again, the clear sound echoed throughout the room.
***T/N: Ugh, I knew she would still ‘choose’ William in the end. I already knew it. B-b-b-b-b-but why introduce so many otherĀ alternatives,Ā then, Author??? Ugh, I still don’t get why Amelia is so hung up over William’s… true… soul…
“When you’re too in love… To let it go~~”
Coldplay – Fix you
I cried in this chapter even though it confuses the hell out of me ??? it’s the memories that’s haunting her and torturing her. When can’t she just die again then reincarnate with no memories, as in nada?
plays Memories by Maroon5
She doesn’t actually love him. She’s still caught up in the past, clinging onto Elliot’s soul.
The whole story so far confuses me…
Yeah…
Tisā confusion
Eehhuhhh this chapter sure confused me greatly
Many thanks