25. The Word from That day
ālong ago,
When I was little, I used to be chubby.
My face was round, my hands were like maple leavesāas a little girl, I was heavy and round.
Around that time, my engagement with His Highness was decided. I was happy. After all, the Crown Prince was a popular person even at that time.
I was overweight, and at the same time, overconfident.
For some reason, I was convinced I was cute.
Yes, I was cute for being round, but not for being a girl. I failed to incite that kind of feeling from the opposite sex.
My overconfidence made me picture a sweet life with His Highness. I was delighted to be able to become the Princeās bride.
I was counting the days until I could finally meet him.
My current self wanted to reprimand the kid me for wanting to meet His Highness in that kind of shapeā¦
As I imagined, His Highness was handsome and cute. He perfectly embodied the phrase, āa beautiful boyā.
I fell in love at first sight. He even said that I was loveable.
But now, I realized. His Highness just couldnāt think of anything else to praise about me. Because of my parentsā indulgence back then, I failed to see even that.
His Highness said, āA loveable lady.ā And escorted me to the garden. I was full of happiness.
The Crown Prince, the boy I had longed for, had taken my hand!
I immediately became attached to him. Wearing such a big dress, I would hug His Highness, who was smaller than me, with my plump hands.
Oh my godā¦!! Thatās some black history I have thereā!!!!
Just thinking back hurt my head.
One day, reality slapped me.
At his eight birthday party, a lady told me.
āMy, look at his livestock of a fiancĆ©e!ā
āSheās eating all those sweets aloneā!? Sheās really huge, and she eats a lot, tooā!ā
Surely, those ladies were young. They hadnāt learn of mincing words, yet.
I was pierced right in the heart thanks to those words.
Only then did it dawn upon meā¦
ā¦my dress was about to crumble apart because of my thick as barrel waist! My face was so glossy, I was a pigletā!!!
I looked around with surprise. I started to concern myself with things I usually didnāt. Suddenly, it felt as if everyone was jeering at meā¦
I shoved the plate of sweets to my servant, excused myself, and returned to the guest room.
I jumped to the bed and thought back.
āāMy, look at his livestock of a fiancĆ©e!ā
āāSheās eating all those sweets aloneā!? Sheās really huge, and she eats a lot, tooā!ā
I was really depressed, ashamed, and overflowing with emotions. I was mortifiedāHis Highness must be ashamed to have me as his fiancĆ©eā¦
ā¦I wouldnāt cry. No matter how terrible their words were, I wouldnāt!
Instead, I would get revenge!
I would never let them utter the same thing again!
I had decided on a diet plan, when a maid knocked on the door.
āTiarize, His Highness Williant is here!ā
I jumped off the bed. Yes, during that time, I still loved His Highness.
I lightly combed my hair and waited for His Highness. When he arrived, I laughed as usual.
āYour Highness!ā
āTia, are you alright? I was worried something happened to you because you suddenly leftā¦ā
My heart danced because His Highness came just to see me.
Even though His Highness was the star of todayās event.
Nevertheless, he came to me.
I couldnāt hide my smile and spread my arms towards His Highness.
āHey, Your Highness, hug me~!ā
āAgain? Tia really likes that, huh.ā
His Highness hugged me while saying that. Oh, how happy I was! I felt like I could face tomorrowās challenge. I was enjoying the warmth of His Highness while I pressed my face against his neck.
At that moment, His Highness abruptly said.
āTiaā¦ is soft.ā
The words were like a lightning strike after I had realized how big my body was. At that time, I realize that even to His Highness, I was this fat lady.
My waist was thicker than His Highness. My face larger.
Everything fueled my shame.
āI canāt do this anymore!
I said to His Highness in a trembling voice.
āIām ā¦soft?ā
Am I fat, was the meaning of the question.
His Highness answered, laughing.
āYes, Tia is soft, and fluffyā¦ā
Naturally, I was shocked to hear that. I cried. He said that while laughing. I thought His Highness was mocking me, and despair came.
I started to see his smile in a different light.
I never fake cried, and above all, my body shape made me unable to reject his statement.
But, His Highness was everything to meā¦!
His words involuntarily made me cry, then, I certainly said thisā¦
āDonāt laugh at meā!!!ā
They were words that came out of a childās mouth. Words that came out because I loved His Highness. I was so self-absorbed back then.
However, His Highness remembered those words from back then until now. Those words had certainly hurt himā¦
I looked at His Highness, feeling lost.
His Highness was still staring anxiously at me, whom had returned to the past.
āā¦Your Highnessā¦ā
āTia?ā
His Highness called me with the same gentle voice as before. I didnāt think the words that I said during our young age would affect him so much. I looked at His Highness and bowed deeply.
āIām terribly sorry.ā
***T/N: I… I am sorry, but… what? Come again…?
Yes, I was cute for being round, but not for being a girl. I failed to incite that kind of feeling from the opposite sex.
My overconfidence made me picture a sweet life with His Highness. I was delighted to be able to become the Princeās bride.
I was counting the days until I could finally meet him.
My current self wanted to reprimand the kid me for wanting to meet His Highness in that kind of shapeā¦
—FUCK YOU!? OMG IN WHAT OTHER WAY COULD YOU READ THIS PASSAGE!? WHAT IS THE AUTHOR IMPLYING!? THAT OVERWEIGHT GIRLS SHOULD NEVER EVEN THINK OF EVER HAVING A HAPPY LIFE?! THAT JUST BECAUSE YOU WEIGHT MORE, HAPPINESS AND BEING LOVED ARE AN IMPOSSIBILITY!? IF THE AUTHOR DOESN’T MEAN TO IMPLY THAT, WELL, CONGRATS FOR OFFICIALLY MAKING A SHALLOW AF MC.
In some regions during medieval era, being plump is actually a symbol of beauty and what men seek first, look it up.
Ok… Ok calm down, I mustn’t broke the capslock like last time…
Ok let’s talk about this calmly… Tia, you… do you honestly think the prerequisite of being a Queen, the nation’s mother, a woman who is suitable to stand beside the King, suitable to shoulder all the responsibility of ruling a nation… is based on your weight? Is based on how much the Prince enjoy your outwardly appearance? That just because a girl is plump, she’s impossible to love? In what way did you “””mature””” throughout all these years!?
That’s a fucking concubine-mindset right there. You know, those consorts who have to fight to be bedded the most often by the King. You might argue that “That’s kid-Tia’s thinking right there!!!” But guys, she was narrating this. She was narrating this in a way that poke fun of her old, child, self. When I would’ve preferred to read about that Tia, instead. That Tia, who loves a boy for a reasonably childish reason, but also wholeheartedly with her pure heart. Not this shallow twat.
I’m fine with a character having traits like this, but that kind of character shouldn’t be placed in the role of a future Queen!?
I mean, when has this girl ever be concerned about actual substantial things like ruling the kingdom? All she ever cared about is how the Prince might not love her lateeer, how he might cheaaaaat, how their relationship might not attain the definition of true loooove–
–my god, I can’t be the only one who think that she’s a shallow af girl?
and let’s not start about the actual misunderstanding itself because if I did rant on that, and that alone, I might end up writing a book.
I had to take several deep breaths reading this chapter.
… that was painful to read.
I’m reading this late, but Tia has clearly given up on being royalty with the plans on being an adventurer we have seen. Tia at a sensitive point had thought that the prince made fun of her weight leading to her own hate of her past self. At this point, handling the changed perspective she has will take her some time after the revelations to really understand.
Me: Sees there are 51 comments and reads almost all of them
Me: Woah……..they are having a debate, should I grab a popcorn???
Yes, I know it may sound rude and I apologize for that. But I am a happy that a debate like this happened because it just shows there are people who are now becoming emotionally invested in the series and proves that other people are also reading it and makes me think “Wow!!!! So there are comrades here who also think of this in that way.” This kind of things give me a view from a different point and helps a lot in appreciating the novels I read better so I honestly appreciate such happenings.
But let’s admit it there are parts that we can say the author has lacked, and an example would be that plastic bag in that one chapter (and I just can’t get over it) but at the same time there are parts that you can say the author has done a good job as that one comment has pointed out that Tia thought of a reason why she wanted to quit being the prince’s fiance.
P. S.
I feel like from the start Williant or was it Williamt???? Should we just call him Willie????? Anyways I am getting sidetracked. What I woild like to say is I feel that the prince is obssessed with Tia from the beginning. Tia may have done something right to cause that……or the prince may have genuinely thought that a chubby Tia is what he likes…….remember how Tia said she used to hug the prince and the prince has described her as soft and fluffy……….he probably loved those hugs from her, as kids that age likes being hugged.
Actually, if her parents spoiled her to that point and her self-image was that shaken, I’m more curious about how she became someone who decided she had the strength to rely on herself (i.e., training swordplay and becoming an adventurer) rather than becoming even more self-indulgent…it seems inconsistent unless something gave her a push…
SHE WAS FIVE. OMFG. SHE WAS FIVE YEARS OLD so how she perceive herself is very different than how others perceive themselves. SHE GREW OLDER then learned to rely slowly on herself.
Granted, she was five, but if her parents raised her in that way thus far, and did not change after, what/who was it that encouraged her to grow in a positive direction rather than a negative one? Just curious.
Ah so annoying… 5 year old mouths off and suddenly 10 years later this is all he thinks about… meanwhile… she hears herself being called livestock and huge, she develops a complex but improves herself by becoming someone worthy of the title of fiance of the Prince, only to have that Prince distance himself from her… imagine all those hugs he missed out on for 10 years…
Just what the hell… A slut can sexually harass a Prince…get away with it, is encouraged to do so by his unwillingness to take action, really? aah… the King made me do it… LOL what the fuck… just what the hell is going on in this story…Author… what are you trying to convey?
In a perfect world you can be how you want and that is it…the problem is there is always someone out there that will have issues with it… I say… fuck off and mind your own business…
Thank you for updating but I disagree with all your arguments! This was a lovely chapter too.
THE AUTHOR IS IMPLYING THAT OVERWEIGHT GIRLS SHOULD NEVER EVEN THINK OF EVER HAVING A HAPPY LIFE
NO. the author is implying this is the MINDSET IN HER WORLD. Also, the passage is the MC’s train of thoughts. I think this is an appropriate reaction for a CHILD who was called a LIVESTOCK and originally believed that she was perfect just the way she was. Her self perception is shaken BECAUSE SHE IS A CHILD WHO DIDN’T KNOW BETTER… like how all children are in the real world.
” MINDSET IN HER WORLD. Also, the passage is the MCās train of thoughts. I think this is an appropriate reaction for a CHILD who was called a LIVESTOCK and originally believed that she was perfect just the way she was. Her self perception is shaken BECAUSE SHE IS A CHILD WHO DIDNāT KNOW BETTERā¦ like how all children are in the real world.”
Author created the world, her thoughts on paper, subconsciously or not.
“This is the mc’s train of thought”
Yeah because character’s train of thought HAS NOTHING TO DO AT ALL with the author.
When was she called a livestock? Are we even reading the same novel?
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And… Mindset in her world…. When its clearly written this author is trying to write the same conventional medieval setting just like other novel….. Only with magic….
The dystopian novel you are referring to isnt this novel, i can provide you instant link to hunger games pdf.
tbh I can’t even believe that this is your point: Author created the world, her thoughts on paper, subconsciously or not.
and so what if he created it? It doesn’t mean she stands by it. It’s part of the plot to make a harsh type of culture to give mc a struggle
Your logic would be accusing the author of snowpiercer to approve of cannibalism. It’s also accusing lewis carrol for approving opium becuase he wrote that the caterpillar smokes. And to all murder story that the author approve of murder because he puts it in his world. This is your logic. It’s not so logical.
“tbh I canāt even believe that this is your point: Author created the world, her thoughts on paper, subconsciously or not.”
Author thinks therefore it is written.
“and so what if he created it? It doesnāt mean she stands by it. Itās part of the plot to make a harsh type of culture to give mc a struggle”
The Author is god of their novel, it is a fabrication of their thoughts. Implying what the Author intends is open for discussion.
“Your logic would be accusing the author of snowpiercer to approve of cannibalism. Itās also accusing lewis carrol for approving opium becuase he wrote that the caterpillar smokes. And to all murder story that the author approve of murder because he puts it in his world. This is your logic. Itās not so logical.”
The author can do what they like in their book, it is from their imagination that such stories exist, what they do in their personal time is their own business.
Exactly. It’s only in their imagination and doesn’t necessarily translate to what they stand for. Personal time is truly their own business and doesn’t really affect the novel.
I’m assuming we’re both agreeing to the statement.
No, you made a comment about my beliefs regarding the Author, I only stated what the Author would do is none of my business
When was she being called a livestock….??? Are you sure we are reading the same novel??? Thats a way to look at it.
pls don’t forget what you write.
āMy, look at his livestock of a fiancĆ©e!ā
You wrote it 2 times. 1st it was being stated and the 2nd was being reminisce. I am a bit offended to think you thought I didn’t read it properly.
also. it’s my 1st time typing in the comments so i hope you don’t find some redundant because I don’t usually type but I just had to defend this novel because it’s not as bad as people think and I am thankful for the updates. i read it religiously. hahahaha
Umm those are childish gabbles? That isnt worth being thought of as major part of a worldbuilding?
I just softened it to livestock bcs i just dont want to have a 2019 elementary school bullying conversation here.
Yeah those children are basically saying she looks like cow. Instead of this world being dystopian children is livestock.
yes I understand she is being fat shamed. I understand it’s not dystopian.
I’m stating that this way of thinking is part of the culture of their country like how Japanese people like porcelain white-skinned and black-haired women.
Stating this will be a good part of character creation/development because we, as readers, would understand how mc thinks and how her insecurities are eating her away.
yes, they are childish gabbles but childish gabbles have a huge impact to children, which what she was in that very moment.
“Iām stating that this way of thinking is part of the culture of their country like how Japanese people like porcelain”
Generalizations lead to incorrect conclusions…
Your arguments are very weak that they do not relate to the matter at hand.
I am also not generalizing without basis because everyone is aware of it too.
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Japanese_fashion_as_social_resistance
“Your arguments are very weak that they do not relate to the matter at hand.
I am also not generalizing without basis because everyone is aware of it too.”
Taking something specific and applying it more broadly is making a generalization.
and the point that you are attacking isn’t even relevant. She was explicitly called fat in a derogatory manner.
I’m also not dumb. I know she isn’t a literal livestock. and hunger games isn’t my type of novel. Idk why would you attack my intelligence at this part when I’m making very sound arguments. Is it because I’m challenging your statements at your own platform? Do you hate me for that?
I am sorry if my comment sounds like im attacking your intelligence. I am more or less convinced now, that you actually have a sound opinion on this story. …and here I thought you are missing the point. But i can see that i am the one missing the point. And im definitely not someone to tell people how to enjoy their story.
Its just that we have different opinions. I shall respect your opinion.
I just tend to maximum hate a thing therefore its hard for me to find the positiveness of it, which you can do. And i am indeed misguided.
Yeeeesss then I have achieved my goal here. I actually wrote a comment because it pains me to see you hate on your own work. I think you’re doing a fantastic job and you chose the right novel to translate. Thank you very much
( āāæā )ā”
Also Idk how to comments work here and I’m really sorry if some comments aren’t where they are supposed to be. (ļ½”ā¢Ģļøæā¢Ģļ½”)
Thank you. I actually have a great reader after all.
Nah, im the one who is being offensive there. Im so so sorry.
“this girl ever be concerned about actual substantial things like ruling the kingdom” and you believe she cares more about true love.
Well. she can’t really give a rats ass about the kingdom because they aren’t married yet. So YES SHE SHOULD WORRY ABOUT THE PRINCE’S FEELINGS FOR HER BECAUSE THAT WILL SHAKE HER POSITION AS FUTURE QUEEN.
I’m assuming she’s having classes about being proper queen like how all fiance of a crown prince have. I understand that it isn’t explicitly stated because it’s always a given and doesn’t do anything with the plot
Also, you know who owns the mentality for wanting to attain the position of queen? CONCUBINES AND COMMONERS WHO HAVE NO POWER. Tia is raised sheltered by a house with power (assuming this because she was chosen). SHE ALREADY HAS POWER. SO SHE WOULDN’T CARE TOO MUCH ABOUT IT BECAUSE SHE KNOWS IT’S HANDED TO HER. That’s actually a very realistic mentality with how nobles are raised.
Yeah and if the kingdom is destroyed she wont have anything to rule hence why SHE SHOULD CARE ABOUT THE KINGDOM
I didn’t read anything drastic aside from foreign affairs from the previous chapters that would make mc show her concern for the nation.
I didn’t read a war
not an epidemic
nor a famine
so sure she needs to worry about the kingdom but the kingdom isn’t in dragon level alert so the mc doesn’t have the stage to show her concerns.
If it were, there’s really not much she can do because acting on her own for the kingdom might overrule the current monarchy. that’d be a slap on the king. We all know what happens after that.
So right now, as fiance, her current concern should really be directed to the cheating prince.
“do you honestly think the prerequisite of being a Queen, the nationās mother, a woman who is suitable to stand beside the King, suitable to shoulder all the responsibility of ruling a nationā¦ is based on your weight?”
YES. OMG. If the nation perceives beauty as somebody thinner, HER WEIGHT WOULD MATTER! Imagine a queen who is believed to be ugly by the people she reigns over! She’d be a laughing stock by other nations and noone would respect her. As Queen, she represents the country and if you represent the country, you have to be the best that country can serve.
Isn’t it shameful to be called ugly by your own children? an ugly mother of the nation… just imagine.
“YES. OMG. If the nation perceives beauty as somebody thinner, HER WEIGHT WOULD MATTER! Imagine a queen who is believed to be ugly by the people she reigns over! Sheād be a laughing stock by other nations and noone would respect her. As Queen, she represents the country and if you represent the country, you have to be the best that country can serve.
Isnāt it shameful to be called ugly by your own children? an ugly mother of the nationā¦ just imagine.”
Power does not care what you look like… Money does not care what you look like… people in response to either won’t care either…
So you want her to be a tyrant who uses her money to rule over the people instead of capturing their hearts with her charm? And charm doesn’t necessarily equate to appearance. I have a feeling you’ll point that out rereading all your previous points. I’m stating charm here as the a mixture of appearance, charisma, tact and how she handles them all.
I think he mean that once you become queen especially in that era where monarchy is absolute, no one would dare to badmouth you. It doesnt even have to be her–the entire kingdom would charge that as an offense and at minimum, would cut the tongue of those badmouthing ppl.
“So you want her to be a tyrant who uses her money to rule over the people instead of capturing their hearts with her charm? And charm doesnāt necessarily equate to appearance. I have a feeling youāll point that out rereading all your previous points. Iām stating charm here as the a mixture of appearance, charisma, tact and how she handles them all.”
The people do not choose who will be Queen, beauty is irrelevant, fulfilling her duty as Queen is all that matters. Charming people can be Tyrants as well.
Good point. The people don’t elect the queen. So skill as well doesn’t matter. I don’t think they put skill in the criteria when they chose her at 5 years old.
I’m assuming she was chosen or approved by the king because she has a pretty face, a title, and parents with connection.
So yes. I still believe that beauty is important because she won’t be a queen regnant… but a queen consort, who usually supports the king, entertains ambassadors and other royalties, and hosts parties.
I’m also assuming that her weight was adjusted to her age at the time because they believe she’ll burn her baby fats as she grew
“When they chose her at 5 years old”
Rather than chose, isnt it usually because her family is the second most powerful after the royalty?
And you bring up interesting titles. But i read sources that said Queen regnant is a title that can only be acquired when her husband–the king–dies? Because a woman isn’t allowed to rule solo in middle age.
The author can inject as much as her own thought as she wants, but because the setting is still in medieval Europe with British nobility rank, an era where women are property and rarely could climb up the ladder, I think this is more about being born to a Duke family rather than being selected like that.
That’s all it was about during medieval times. To be a ruler is a birthright, the same applies to being Queen. There’s nothing you can do about it because you can’t choose your family. The poor stayed poor while the rich stayed rich–
–and that’s how renaissance happen.
On another note, I would rather read the story you wrote rather than this author’s
Title and family influence merits consideration, political connection with whom they wish to partner with, having beauty is only a bonus.
Lastly, A shallow mc isn’t bad.
If she were smart, she would have figured out everything from the start.
And won’t that be a boring novel?
And an author shouldn’t ever be applauded for successfully making a dumb character that cant even figure smallest thing out.
Thats lazy writing.
Her current character flaw is being dumb. A perfect mc is boring.
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It’s sad that this kind of shallowness is very common in romance media…
Big girls and guys, glasses, darker skin color or anything outside the narrow beauty ideal is not worth looking at and has to change to fit the beauty ideal as best as possible – or so it seems. One would think that these authors would use the fact that their target group are teenagers to spread a more positive message, but nah :/
This is annoying AF. Some guys really donāt care about weight and prefer if you have a bit more weight on.
Iāve been super skinny my entire life and I donāt think if makes me much more attractive than anyone else. Itās subjective.
This novel is so sexist and childish.
Tia tho… Iām starting to think that she doesnāt care about any of the important qualifications to be queen. (Sarcasm)
since the bad things have been said i will chip in the positive i remember š
tia did once wonder about the kingdom being in serious trouble if the king didt like his queen (her) and had the pink one as mistress he favors therefore splitting political power/into 2 camps. was one reason she wanted to quit as future queen.
i remember cause i read everything at once and it was such an unusual thought for the airhead her^^
I feel so happy to read this
i’m wondering if you are even going to be able to translate this past the first ‘epilogue’ with how much crap this author spews, i thought this chapter might be better but it wasn’t
hope this story doesn’t burn you out or anything you do great stories and i never get thrown off with a bad/miss translation or hard to read wording and have to stop reading just to understand what was written
Send vodka my way please. The strong one.
I’m from Poland, I can send you spirytus (95% alcohol) š
I mean children are highly impressionable.
Then her parents haven’t rised her right to be the qualified future Queen
With how general nobility are in novels, I’m more or less surprised they survived so long raised like that.