Translation When I Faked Amnesia to Break Off my Engagement, my FiancĆ© Casually Told me a Ridiculous Lieā€”ā€œYou were in Love with me Before you Lost Your Memory.ā€

33. Up Until now, and in the Future

After leaving the drawing room, a nearby maid guided me to Philipā€™s room.

Upon arriving, I spotted Cedric. He looked at me as if troubled.

ā€œIā€™m sorry to have kept you waiting. Itā€™s no good…ā€
His shoulders sagged as he sighed.

ā€œ…Lord Cedric, forgive me, but can you leave me alone for a moment?ā€

ā€œYes, I understand.ā€

ā€œThank you.ā€

Cedric smiled when he heard my request and left with the maid. While thinking I should thank Cedric again, I approached the door.

ā€œPhil, this is me, Viola. Iā€™m sorry for my sudden visit. But I really want to talk to you.ā€

ā€œ…ā€

ā€œCan we speak for a moment?ā€

There was no reply.

…If I hadnā€™t heard Vio-chanā€™s words, I wouldā€™ve given up and left.

At that moment, it was different.

He still loved me. That fact supported me above all else.

ā€œThen, let me ask you a question.ā€

I was sure he was listening. Believing that, I gently put my palm against the door, and continued.

ā€œ…Ever since I was a child, I thought of you as a distant person. I always thought of you as a perfect beingā€”someone who was outside my reach.ā€

Be it status, appearance, intelligenceā€”we were both unmatched. You who did everything perfectly, and I whom was clumsy.

Because I had been with him ever since I was born, I was made painfully aware of our differences. After all, everyone praised him. As such, I began to feel inferior. I fell in to self-loathing over and over again.

Thus, I concluded that if we were to get married in such a situation, we would never attain happiness. Without marrying him, heā€™d find someone more suitable, and I wouldnā€™t have to keep hating myself.

At that time, that was what I believed. I never doubted it.

ā€œAs a result, I desperately wanted to break off our engagement, to the point of feigning amnesia. That day, when you lied and told that we loved each other, I was surprised. I thought you were harassing me.ā€

I thought of what he said as some kind of crazy lie.

I thought that all those words of love from him were simply thatā€”lies.

ā€œHowever, I came to know that Lord Philip is different from what I believed. You are not good with people, but at the same time, you kept on saying and doing outrageous things. I never imagined you would do anything like that before.ā€

My field of vision gradually blurred. I desperately reigned my tears.

ā€œIn truth, you arenā€™t a perfect being.ā€

Inviting me to the river for a date, reading a strange book…

Being overjoyed over my poor embroidery, naming and talking to a parakeet as if it was me….

Suddenly putting on an ice bucket…

…When I remembered that, I wanted to laugh.

Still…

ā€œ…And thatā€™s what I love about you.ā€

I fell in love with him before I knew it.

I wanted to stay by his side all the time.

ā€œI love Philip whoā€™s kind, tense, clumsy, but genuine.ā€

Tears overflowed from my eyes. My voice trembled, and I was stuttering. Still, I clenched my palm tight and continued.

ā€œFrom now on, I want to call you ā€˜Philā€™ not because you wanted me to, but out of my own volition. I want to remain as your fiancĆ©e. I want to stay with you, forever…ā€

When I said that, the door flung open. Because I was leaning my hand against it, I lost my balance and fell forward.

But the ground never hit me. Before I noticed it, I was being tightly embraced by Philip.

ā€œ…Forgive me.ā€

His voice, as he muttered that, was wavering. His warmth, scent, and voice engulfed me. My tears spilled even more.

ā€œIā€™m really sorry.ā€

ā€œ…ā€

ā€œI made you cry. Youā€™re hurt because of me.ā€

ā€œLord, Philip…ā€

ā€œNo matter how much I apologize, it wonā€™t be enough.ā€

After that, I remained in his embrace for a while. Eventually, we gently separated. He anxiously gazed at me.

ā€œIā€™m sorry for avoiding you all this time.ā€

ā€œNo, Iā€™m the one at fault. I lied to you…ā€

Still, never once did he blame me.

Regardless, I felt that we were seeing eye to eye.

ā€œ…As you say, Iā€™m not perfect. I think of myself as a very ugly man who told lie after lie, and I am also not good at speaking.ā€

ā€œYes, I know.ā€

Hearing my answer, Philip lowered his face and laughed. His right hand gently touched my cheek.

ā€œStill, Iā€™m confident that I love you more than anyone else.ā€

His passionate eyes put me on a standstill.

Although I had been with him since I was born, I felt that I was finally able to face him properly for the first time.

ā€œI swear to you that I wonā€™t lie ever again… can I still be by your side?ā€

ā€œI also promise to never lie again.ā€

When I said to him, ā€œPlease stay with me forever.ā€ Philip was baffled.

After a five minute long mysterious silence, Philip hesitantly opened his mouth.

ā€œYou… do you truly love me?ā€

ā€œI do.ā€

ā€œ…Really.ā€

ā€œYes, I love you.ā€

When I answered immediately, Philip crouched down, covered his mouth with his hands, and sighed for a long time.

His face and ears were surprisingly bright red. I crouched down to match his eye level.

He looked so, so adorable, and that was when I realized how scary love was.

ā€œ…Iā€™m speechless.ā€

ā€œAt a time like this, arenā€™t you supposed to say something?ā€

ā€œ…I can finally die in peace.ā€

ā€œPlease donā€™t.ā€

Gradually, his expression changed. He seemed ready to cry at any moment. That time, I gently touched his cheek. A tear drop spilled from his golden eyes.

ā€œ…Iā€™ve always loved you.ā€

With his face buried in my shoulder, Philip muttered so. That confession alone appeased my past self.


***T/N: …Award. GIVE THAT DAMN BIRD AN AWARD!!!!!!!!!!!

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