Chapter Forty-Seven: The Heroine of a Fool (Part X)

I woke up to the sound of Kaname’s angry voice.

“You… I was called by Takemiya, only to find out that you slept in a place like this… I told you that everyone needed to be there because there’s a requisite meeting at the Student Council today!!”

“…Shoot!! I forgot!!”

I completely forgot that the schedule had changed because of Bushi Niki’s subcommittee meeting… Well, what time is it now?

I jump up in a hurry while wiping the drool from my mouth.

“Oh, it’s already over…?”

“It’s already over!! I’m wondering if you even know what time it is now.”

When I looked at the clock, it was already past seven o’clock in the evening.

Apparently, I was asleep for quite some time.

…Why was it only done on such a special occasion? I used to go to the Student Council room every day until yesterday.

“I called your cell phone many times, and when I thought it finally connected, Takemiya told me to take you home, and when I came, you didn’t even notice the incoming call, and you were in his bed… You fell asleep on his bed… Ayaka, why are you at this place?”

“That’s because I came here to skip classes…”

“Ah!?”

Oh, no. Kaname. He’s so angry.

It’s only natural because I missed an important meeting… But only because I’ve worried, causing me to sleep in a place like this.

Anyone would get angry.

Why am I so stupid?

I really hate myself.

“I’m sorry, Kaname!! Please tell me the details of the meeting!! I need to make sure I can make up for this…”

“…I don’t know you anymore.”

Kaname’s voice was so cold. It was something I had never heard before.

“I don’t know any stupid woman who flirts with another man, all the while skipping an important meeting.”

After saying that, Kaname turned his back to me.

…Ah

Kaname, go.

Throw me away and go.

–I knew this would happen.

I was prepared.

I knew this day would come from the first day we met.

Because being the Empress was too out of reach. I can’t get away from my stupid self.

See, this is what it’s come to… This is the best way for him, after all.

I’ll accept Kaname’s choice… Because that’s the way for him to be the happiest.

I want you to be happier than anyone else.

I have to laugh and accept our separation.

“–Be aware of your position.”

When I grabbed Kaname’s arm, what came out of my mouth was an Empress-sama line I saw in the game.

“It doesn’t matter how you feel. As long as I am the heiress of the Hououin family and you are the second son of a concubine in the Ryudoji family, you are my dog.”

It was the line that Empress-sama says with a sneer, as she refuses to let go of her dog.

…No, I don’t want to.

I don’t want to let Kaname go.

I want to live with you next door… Even if it means depriving Kaname of happiness.

Ah, I’m terrible. I didn’t want him to know that I was such a selfish and horrible person.

But it’s impossible… It’s impossible for me. I can’t imagine a life without Kaname next to me.

If Kaname leaves me because of my stupidity, then I will become Empress-sama this time.

It’s okay. Himeno-chan has trained me to become Empress-sama.

I can play the role of Empress-sama if it means that I can keep Kaname.

Forget the me, who is stupid, and show him that I am the perfect Empress-sama.

“You are my toy. My cute dog. Therefore–”

After saying that, I was at a loss for words.

In the original game, Empress-sama would have already laughed and continued her monologue like this.

“I won’t let you go easily.”

However, while saying so, Empress-sama actually relinquishes Kaname easily.

She did it with extreme ease without showing any remorse.

“Easy – No, I won’t let you go for the rest of my life.”

The words that came out were not the lines of Empress-sama, but mine.

It’s not the words of the noble and cool Empress-sama, but my stupid and disgraceful words.

My tears and snot were running at the same time.

The hand I used to grab Kaname’s arm was trembling.

–I’m stupid. I can’t be as cool as Empress-sama.

“But don’t give up your endless nagging…”

Ah, I’m foolish… I can’t believe I just finally became aware of it.

“I don’t want to be separated… But I’ve liked you… Since long ago… In the sense of love.”

It was a clear fact that I was in love with Kaname.

“–So don’t be attached to other people!!”

Before I knew it, I was in Kaname’s arms.

“If I’m yours, then you’re mine, not that… That Do-Me woman, that Takemiya… Sainohara, and Sukeda, because of them… I should be the one taking care of you…!”

Kaname hugged me painfully.

It was hard and painful, but the heat that came from Kaname was so warm that my tears welled up.

“I’m the only one who can take care of you!”

–Ah, it’s strange.

As expected, this world is far too far from the original game.

I reached for his cheek while he was hugging me.

“…Kaname, why are you crying…?”

It’s strange.

It wasn’t necessary to hug the heroine while crying pathetically, but it must have been the end of the Yandere route when that happened.

Kaname in the game was a stubborn character who didn’t show tears even in front of the heroine despite being in an unhappy situation. No matter how much the heroine moved him, he kept desperately trying to keep his crumbling mask as the President until the end.

…But now, Kaname, why are you crying like a child in front of me?

“Kaname… Don’t cry.”

“…I don’t want to hear that from someone who’s dripping with tears and snot… I’m afraid you’re the one making me cry.”

The tightness of the hug got stronger. Wait a minute! My internal organs… Will come out…!

“Erm, Kaname… You know, your arms…”

“I can’t abandon you… Stupid. You’re the one who left me alone, so why should I be blamed…”

“…”

“…I’m your dog… You must be responsible for picking me up… You must not let me go now.”

Kaname’s voice got even huskier as it trembled terribly.
…Losing an internal organ or two might be my form of compensation. It’s my punishment for making the merciless Kaname look this pathetic.

I can’t believe that not having lunch with Kaname would weigh him down this much.

…I’m sorry, Kaname. I felt a little happy at the thought of that.

I’m terrible for being happy that Kaname’s crying and trembling so much because of me. I’m a terrible owner.

“…You don’t like to be treated like a dog, but you always act dog-like when stuff like this happens…”

“It’s convenient for you, too, to pretend to be the owner even when you’re not, so… It’s the same for you, isn’t it?”

“Well… I guess that’s right.”

…Now that I think about it, I think our relationship has once again become strange. It’s far from the game and, in a sense, distorted.

However, as I’m stupid, I can never be noble and beautiful like Empress-sama, so maybe that’s all right. Because if I really were like Empress-sama, then I wouldn’t have been able to build this kind of relationship with Kaname.

“Ayaka… Ayaka…”

I’m sure that Kaname would never call my name repeatedly just to confirm my existence.

–But I think about it a little bit.

Empress-sama must have had special feelings for Kaname, so she treated him like a dog.

And because of her pride, she couldn’t express her feelings because of his mental strength.

Otherwise, all that was left was to release him.

In that way, she couldn’t do anything but wish for his happiness in such a roundabout way.

…It’s all just my own guess.

“Hey, Kaname… I have a favor to ask of you.”

“…What, Ayaka… If you want me to stop hugging you, I will reject it. This cannot be vetoed.”

“It’s too much pressure, I think you’re going to push out all of my internal organs, but that wasn’t what I was about to say… Kaname… Stay next to me for the rest of my life and take care of me… Promise?”

“Enough of your silly questions. Who else can fill such a troublesome role?”

Kaname smiled happily.

I’m stupid. It was so hard-core that I couldn’t be healed even after I was reincarnated.

No matter how hard I tried, I could not become a beautiful and noble Empress-sama.

But I think I’m the happiest idiot in the world.

“I’ll grant your wish… So Ayaka, stay stupid for the rest of your life and always stay next to me.”

The person I love will be next to me forever.

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