I Don't Want to Break off my Engagement... Translation

53. True Identity

The next day.

Will and I went to the Lindor territory, and by chance, discovered something impossible.

The impossible thing was apparently a mansion filled with only children.

The entrance had a strange structure, it was locked from both the outside and inside. The window I looked at had a fence. It looked more like prison than a mansion.

It was made so that the people inside wouldn’t be able to escape—I immediately noticed so when I saw the building.

But how I found the building was a coincidence.

There was a beautiful lake in the territory of Lindor. When I was taking a walk around it, I got lost. Will grabbed me by the hand and led me, “I think this is the way to the house.”

The reality of the mansion took my breath away.

“The truth is, I discovered it. It seems that Tia has just heard about it.” He said.

I was even more confused when I heard it. Will knew of this place.

However, it seemed that I happened to find the building by chance.

What was revealed to be the result of a ridiculous internal affair. It seemed that Count Ferpia had a hobby for children.

He was an abnormal person who gathered young children and made them call him ‘Papa’. He was a suspicious man. When I heard it, I felt like I was going to vomit, so I covered my mouth with a handkerchief.

At that time, I recalled Fern’s words, which was for me to protect Shal Ferpia…

‘Shal’—was certainly a member of the Count’s family. If he made Shal call him ‘papa’, wouldn’t that make him the son of the Earl family? Even if he wasn’t in the register.

Fern didn’t have time to explain it, hence she purposefully said ‘Shal Ferpia’. It was a name I wouldn’t be able to find in the family register. Which meant, she had intended for me to discover it myself—she trusted me.

In the hall, I was led by Will, and escorted to the entrance. Will and his attendant, Kevin, went in. The children were then rescued. It seemed that there was a child called ‘Shal’ amongst them, but he was so weak, it wouldn’t have been strange for him to die at any given moment.

I thanked Will and took Shal to my house. My father was surprised when I suddenly said I wanted to take care of the orphan. Still, I managed to persuade him and he gave me permission to adopt him—probably because of Will’s help.

It might be an atonement, but I still wanted to look after Shall as Fern had requested.

He shouldn’t have any blood relation with Fern, but Shal’s hair was also light blue. It reminded me of Fern.

From that day onward, Shal Ferpia became Shal Merfan.


I went out with Will on a regular walk. It was winter—the flowers weren’t in bloom yet, but I liked walking through the winter gardens. Will said he didn’t like it because it was cold, but he still accompanied me anyway.

“Hey, Will?”

“Yes? What is it, Tia? It’s cold, so get closer to me.”

“Eh!? Kyaa…!”

Suddenly Will pulled my arm, and I was embraced. Oh, it was warm, but also embarrassing. It was exciting, but still, embarrassing! There were maids and knights a bit of a distance away!

I tried to wriggle out of Will’s arms, but he didn’t let go of me.

“Ugh, Will!”

“What is it? Did you have something to talk about?”

“Y, yes…”

“It can’t be helped, it’s cold, after all. Tia wanted to go to the garden. Because we’re on a date, it’s fine if I get some warmth from Tia—there’s nothing wrong with that?”

“W, wha?”

Certainly, what he said made sense.

While I was pondering, Will sneakily lifted my arm and our hands were connected.

“I was just joking. If I stick too close, you might find it intolerable, and I might make Tia cry…”

“I, I am not crying!”

“Just now, you were about to cry, right? Oh, Tia is so cute—hey, can I kiss you again?”

“No! Because right now—no, that’s not what’s important right now!”

“Yes, I understand—then, Tia, what’s wrong?”

Will told me as I cleared my throat—because of Will, the pace of my thoughts was disturbed. Iit couldn’t be helped, though.

I kept speaking to Will even though my face was red.

“I want to visit the downtown.”

“The downtown?”

“I can’t?”

“Hmm…”

Before, I didn’t have to ask Will for permission each time—but because of this necklace, I had to ask Will firmly.

To be honest, it was very troublesome.

However, if I went on my own, he would get angry and concerned, and his skinship would become more intense than usual. So, I always had to quietly ask for Will’s permission if I wanted to go to the downtown…

…After thinking a little, Will finally said, “Ah, right.”

He smiled at me, I couldn’t help but be relieved when I saw such a beautiful smile.

“If it’s with Rat, then it’s okay.”

“Rat…?”

“Huh? You forgot about him?”

“Of course I remember him! But why Rat—no, why do you know about Rat?”

“Because Rat is me.”

“…Huh?”

My brain basically abandoned me after I heard Will’s words. Will gasped as if he was surprised. Our hands were still entwined.

“Tia, Tia is really dense. Thanks to me, you haven’t been attacked by anyone. I want you to thank me.”

“W, why do I have to thank Will for that—wait, Will, is Rat!?”

The maid looked at me, who shouted. Will glanced at me while raising his index finger. It was a thin, long, and a little bony, man’s hand. Will smiled at me when my face turned red as I became conscious of it.

“This is why, Tia is so…”

“Wh, what…?”

“My name is Williant (uiRiAnTo), and Rat was a name derived from that anagram.”

“Ana… gram?”

“To be honest, his complete name is supposed to be Rat Wiant, but it’s kind of risky to give the name of an aristocrat who doesn’t exist.”

Will laughed happily and dropped a small kiss on my ear. My face got hot again after the unexpected contact—Will chuckled at that.

“Tia is really easy to read.”

When I heard those words, I suddenly racked my memories. This was the fastest my brain had ever worked.

‘Why do you look annoyed?’

—‘Rat knows?’

—‘Although my relationship with Artie has been short, your face is really easy to read. So? What happened?’

Those were the conversation I had with Rat in the downtown.

Thus,

‘Fu, Tia is really easy to read. Please smile? Tia’s smiling face is the cutest.’

A, ah, aaaaaaaah!

A lightning bolt ran through my brain as I gazed at Will.

Will smiled. “You finally realized?”

“W, Will.”

“I’m troubled because you always consulted with me a lot… I keep thinking about pushing you down.”

“You thought about pushing me down?”

“It’s because of my mind. So, Tia? What’s your answer? Can I go to the downtown with you?”

I was a little disappointed with Will’s words, but my answer was fixed.

“Of course you can!”

I was a little angry, so I hugged Will.

It was kind of awkward that the Rat I trusted was actually Will.

However, I wondered why Will wouldn’t be touched by me even though he touched me a lot. His face was red now.

“T, Tia!”

Listening to his scream, I smiled.

Fufu, if I could see that expression of his… right, it wasn’t too bad.

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**A/N: There will be a part 2 of this (if I can afford to write it)…


***T/N:

Will and I went to the Lindor territory, and by chance, discovered something impossible.

HOW IS IT BY CHANCE?! HE KNOWS THE EXACT LOCATION!!!

But how I found the building was a coincidence.

STOP PUTTING YOUR ASS ON A PEDESTAL.

There was a beautiful lake in the territory of Lindor. When I was taking a walk around it, I got lost.

OF COURSE SHE GOT LOST!!! I BET SHE WAS CHASING BUTTERFLIES!!! I NEVER WANTED FOR THERE TO BE AN ARGUMENT THAT WOULD ACTUALLY PROVE SHE NEEDED THAT DAMN TRACKER.

He was an abnormal person who gathered young children and made them call him ‘Papa’. He was a suspicious man. When I heard it, I felt like I was going to vomit, so I covered my mouth with a handkerchief.

…Idk Author, there’s not enough argument to support your ‘abnormal’ and ‘suspicious’ argument–

–THE FACT IS, WILL IS EVEN MORE ABNORMAL AND SUSPICIOUS THAN THAT COUNT FERPIA PERSON. HE KNEW ABOUT THE EXACT LOCATION OF THE BUILDING, AND EVEN THE DARK SECRET HIDDEN WITHIN ALL ALONG!!!! BUT THEN HE PROCEEDED TO TURN A BLIND A EYE TO THAT!!!! TO THE CHILDREN AND PEOPLE AND  HIS OWN KINGDOM!!!! YOU ARE NOT GOING TO SAY ANYTHING ABOUT THIS, TIA!? JUST LIKE THE WAY YOU IGNORE HIS CONTROLLING BEHAVIOR, YOU’RE JUST GOING TO ‘MEH’ IT OFF?!??!?! OF COURSE YOU DO!!!!

From that day onward, Shal Ferpia became Shal Merfan.

What about the other children? You don’t seem very concerned about their aftermath, Tia, just like you forgot those children back in Talia.

AND THAT’S IT GUYS, THE CLIMAX OF THE STORY. THE REASON WE’VE BEEN SUFFERING ALL THIS TIME, JUST TO SEE IF THE AUTHOR COULD SOMEHOW TIE IT ALL DOWN AND MAKE A COHERENT STORY–BUT NAH, THIS IS WHAT WE GET INSTEAD. ALL OF THOSE MONTHS OF SUFFERINGS, IT ALL BOILS DOWN TO THIS 5++ PARAGRAPHS OF HALF-ASSED CLIMAX THE AUTHOR PULLS OUT OF HER ASS. ITS LIKE SHE DOESN’T EVEN CARE ANYMORE, SHE JUST WANNA PROCEED WITH THE RAPEY BORDERLINE 18++ SCENE. I STRIVE TO BE THAT PASSIONATE OF A WRITER.

Before, I didn’t have to ask Will for permission each time—but because of this necklace, I had to ask Will firmly.

To be honest, it was very troublesome.

However, if I went on my own, he would get angry and concerned, and his skinship would become more intense than usual. So, I always had to quietly ask for Will’s permission if I wanted to go to the downtown…

AGAIN, THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE ROMANTIC!? THIS IS THE ‘NURTURING’ , ‘BORN OUT OF TRUST’ RELATIONSHIP WE SHOULD ALL ROOT FOR!?!? DUDE TRIES TO CONTROL EVERY ASPECT OF HER LIFE, AND WHEN SHE DID THINGS OUT OF HER OWN ACCORD, MOLESTATION BORDERLINE RAPE AWAITS!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU WRITING, AUTHOR!!!!!!

“Tia, Tia is really dense. Thanks to me, you haven’t been attacked by anyone. I want you to thank me.”

nO, No thank to you, she becomes a toddler who doesn’t understand that her actions are considered stringing along man.

“Because Rat is me.”

Of course, of course Rat is you. What do you lack as an abusive boyfriend, really? You’re controlling, manipulative, rapey, and now stalkerish behavior and catfishing are also added into the equation. Fantastic.

“I’m troubled because you always consulted with me a lot… I keep thinking about pushing you down.”

Holy. [hollow eyes] and Tia always tell her sob stories to Rat, right? Because to her, he’s someone she can talk about everything with, because she thought he always listen to her and try to comprehend her. OH BOI HOW WRONG SHE WAS. My analysis was correct. Whenever Tia is venting, dude is busy getting turned on–Jesus, that was bitter. Yuck. Gross.

#RelationshipGoal #Healthy #Totallynotdisfunctionalatall 

It was kind of awkward that the Rat I trusted was actually Will.

‘KIND OF AWKWARD’?!?! LADY, HE WAS CATFISHING YOU FOR POSSIBLY MANY YEARS!!! YOU SHOULD TAKE THIS AS A RED FLAG AND RUN!!!!!!!!!!

**A/N: There will be a part 2 of this (if I can afford to write it)…

…My urge to beat the shit out of someone has never been this high. THIS IS THE AUTHOR SPEAKING, YOU GUYS. SOMEONE WHO IS RESPONSIBLE FOR OUR SORROW, GRIEF, AND SUFFERING–THE AUTHOR IS SO CLOSE, AND YET SO FAR, *CRACK FISTS

You guys probably think this is the end but nah, Author did afford to write, therefore there’s an EXTENDATION to arc 2, which are consisted of three more chapters. And I did say I would finish arc 2, so bear with me you guys, only 3 chapters of this shitfest are left.

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